mayday, mayday!
i think i'm kind of dying. it's quite possible. all signs point to it. my brain tends to get rather numb at times. heart arbitrarily quickens or slows. shortness of breath.
so fed up with people, fakeness, manipulative bastards and bastardettes. i wish i could be myself and just do what i wanted, and not have to play these petty games. what's wrong with having your heart on your sleeve? like besides the part when the sleeve gets caught in the clothes dryer and your heart tears apart. because besides that, i think it's the best thing you could ever do for yourself and for the people around you. let them know exactly how you feel about things. don't keep things locked up. ... because then... the muckiness ensues....
i think i'm kind of lonely. i have good reasons to be, primarily the fact that i am alone, after all.
i just need to watch myself at this point, that i don't slide back to where i was before... just because i'm back at 'square one' per se, in the relationship arena doesn't mean i need to go back to 'square one' in the emotional arena. it doesn't equate. learn your lesson and move on. okay, okay, i get it already. but please, let me go back and touch the stove again, see what happens, maybe something different this time. perhaps?
so fed up with people, fakeness, manipulative bastards and bastardettes. i wish i could be myself and just do what i wanted, and not have to play these petty games. what's wrong with having your heart on your sleeve? like besides the part when the sleeve gets caught in the clothes dryer and your heart tears apart. because besides that, i think it's the best thing you could ever do for yourself and for the people around you. let them know exactly how you feel about things. don't keep things locked up. ... because then... the muckiness ensues....
i think i'm kind of lonely. i have good reasons to be, primarily the fact that i am alone, after all.
i just need to watch myself at this point, that i don't slide back to where i was before... just because i'm back at 'square one' per se, in the relationship arena doesn't mean i need to go back to 'square one' in the emotional arena. it doesn't equate. learn your lesson and move on. okay, okay, i get it already. but please, let me go back and touch the stove again, see what happens, maybe something different this time. perhaps?