just another thought. [i am not whining]
patience, yes, it is a virtue.
however, at times too, it is a f*cking pain in the ass to be patient. but then you try your best, because after all you too are hoping for the best. supposedly, the universe should conspire to make things easy, probably as pakunswelo after you have put in all your efforts to be good and positive about certain matters. but if if turns out to be the other way around, wherein the conspiracy seems to happen to make things worse and prolong the agony, that is where the problem happens. why not, right? we are all just human. we get tired. and we can only take up to our limits. beyond that, it may become exhausting. and our knots may just snap.
that, i hope, is something way too far yet when it comes to the things and people i am trying to deal with.