because i can't let this wait until tomorrow...
there are many things up to my mind. but im too tired and sleepy to reiterate everything piece per piece in a very elaborated way of writing, so ill try my bets to make a list. i think im good at listing. i just soooo need to blog about these things or else i wont get to sleep decently with my hands itching to work its way to my keyboards.
1. indeed, it was more than the heart sounds
this morning i had one of the best nursing seminars i have ever attended to. with our beloved feu dean, dr. anabelle r. borromeo as speaker of course. and it was more than the literal updates on understanding heartsounds, rather it was also of hearing what your heart truly tells you regarding your goal in the nursing profession. and she never fails to inspire me to become the best nurse. others might say i may sound like a hypocrite for claiming that yes, i am loving what i am bound to do because of service, but hell yeah i do.
i thank her for giving us the support we needed. especially in this times of confusion as to whether pursue our own big dreams for ourselves, or dedicate our service to the country whom we owe so much from. ever since, she always had the biggest contribution in making her students realize how it is not bad to dream big, because indeed it is through this that we can actually be bigger than we could ever imagine. but i will always keep in mind too, just like how she said it, that in due time, after we answer to all our personal needs, it is time to give back our service. just as how you did. and look at her right now, helping every way she could to make the best nurse in every filipino nurse she meets. and she never fails to do that. someday, i will be like her. i just know i would. and i am proud to have been one of her students.
2. ohana means no one gets left behind
disclaimer: soorrrrrryyyy for the poor title of this part of the list, but im just tooo sleepy really to think of a better one so just bear with it.
we actually just got back from a family dinner because my father decided that it was about time we celebrated my passing in the past board exam (better late than never). but i think what we had to celebrate was more than just my triumphs, but our achievements as a family. we may have had our toughest times, but here we are, complete and still kick-ass as ever (of course, love your own!).
i love my family to death. no need to elaborate further. and indeed, they are the number ones in the other list i keep, the one that says : my favorite persons in the world.
*oh and thaaaankkkkkssss too paps, for my new "pet". i won't lose it. i mean come on, how can i if i love it to death too! so chic and so arte and so pink. haha. *fingers crossed.* i won't be the same old careless person paps. promise.
3. i forgive but i never forget
yes. i know it's a bad habit, but it's the bad habit i can't get rid of. and the more bad habit is that it is also something i DON'T wan't to get rid of. sorry. guess you just have to put up with it.
4. cool changes
in connection to the third thing written on this list, right now i am at this state where i firmly believe that there really are some things which will never be the same again. i am not quite sure if it is exactly a cool change but, right now i really am at this point too where i don't want to take an effort too to regain what was lost. yes it is still there, but yeah, reality bites. remember that i am a fan of the transformation theory. things change. and in some aspects, so do i.
okay done listing. AGDHKAKPODSAHJNE. thank you god for this gift of writing.
that's it. my eyes are on it's best effort to stay open already. and it's about to shut in 5...4......3...2,1.