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I have no clue why exactally, but I feel like kicking the shit out of someone. I just want sooo bad for some guy to piss me off. It would have to be a guy, because as anxious as I am, I could not fight a girl, unless she was threatening my life, In which case I would only hit her once... Just to disarm her
Anyways, I get to go to school tommorow, plenty of opportunities for people to piss me off. I am kind of stuck here at Kelly's until then, because my mother decided that it was up to me to get home... I guess that that did not help in my being pissed thing.
Eric almost killed some retarted kid today, Dennis I do beleive his name is. I wanted to fight sooo bad I was just hoping that they would fight and I could get in it.
Aparentaly I drank a shitload last night, I do not remember a damn thing other than telling everybody "I LOVE HER" That is all I remember. And apparentally it has driven her further away from me than I want to be, (yet another thing adding to the tension) I almost broke out in tears today, that is how much I hurt right now, not physically, but emotionally. And apparentally I am a very emotional drunk, I almost started a fight with Eric. Eric, my one true friend right now, that would have went over well. Right now I guess that the only type of people that I hate are backstabbing, self indulgent, wanna-bes, or any other type of breathing person. Right now I can not seem to stand anyone. I hate everyone, even myself... Well... everyone but Eric, but I guess that I was hating him last night. It was not even his fault, it was the bitch that I like, it was all her fault. She knows damn well that I would do anything for her, and yet she was all over Eric, and I mean allll over him, she was sitting on his lap and everything. I guess that that is what made me so pissed at Eric, but I realize now that I am never going to drink with other people around again... . NEVER. OH shit... I'm in tears again, I have to go now, or I will start shaking and hit something, and seeing that I am in Roses room using her computer, because there are people that I HATE in the other room right now, and nobody in this one, I dont want to break anything of hers..... I may seem like an asshole to everyone at times, but I am not. I am one of the nicest fucking people that you will ever meet, and FUCK YOU if you do not want me FUCK YOU
Anyways, I get to go to school tommorow, plenty of opportunities for people to piss me off. I am kind of stuck here at Kelly's until then, because my mother decided that it was up to me to get home... I guess that that did not help in my being pissed thing.
Eric almost killed some retarted kid today, Dennis I do beleive his name is. I wanted to fight sooo bad I was just hoping that they would fight and I could get in it.
Aparentaly I drank a shitload last night, I do not remember a damn thing other than telling everybody "I LOVE HER" That is all I remember. And apparentally it has driven her further away from me than I want to be, (yet another thing adding to the tension) I almost broke out in tears today, that is how much I hurt right now, not physically, but emotionally. And apparentally I am a very emotional drunk, I almost started a fight with Eric. Eric, my one true friend right now, that would have went over well. Right now I guess that the only type of people that I hate are backstabbing, self indulgent, wanna-bes, or any other type of breathing person. Right now I can not seem to stand anyone. I hate everyone, even myself... Well... everyone but Eric, but I guess that I was hating him last night. It was not even his fault, it was the bitch that I like, it was all her fault. She knows damn well that I would do anything for her, and yet she was all over Eric, and I mean allll over him, she was sitting on his lap and everything. I guess that that is what made me so pissed at Eric, but I realize now that I am never going to drink with other people around again... . NEVER. OH shit... I'm in tears again, I have to go now, or I will start shaking and hit something, and seeing that I am in Roses room using her computer, because there are people that I HATE in the other room right now, and nobody in this one, I dont want to break anything of hers..... I may seem like an asshole to everyone at times, but I am not. I am one of the nicest fucking people that you will ever meet, and FUCK YOU if you do not want me FUCK YOU