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The sister of my ex contacted me today...
Jessica Rene Sapp, the woman I went to Florida for...woman who always managed to push my buttons...
Well she died yesterday
She was always ill recently and she took painkillers....unfortunately, she took too many painkillers and gave herself an accidental overdose and passed away
Her sister contacted me to say how much I meant to Jessica, how she always spoke of me everytime they spoke over the 4 years I knew her, how I was her biggest regret and she always loved me.
This information has really got me conflicted and mentally fucked....I am going from angry to upset nearly every 10 minutes...crying, then being angry at how she could do this....accidentally kill herself and also getting dropped on me all the stuff about her loving me all these years and regretting what happened between us and her mistakes.
What am I meant to do or cope with all this....I wont even be able to go to the funeral and pay my last respects.
RIP Jessica Rene Sapp 1982 - 2009 - I hope you find the peace in death, that you could never find in life.
Jessica Rene Sapp, the woman I went to Florida for...woman who always managed to push my buttons...
Well she died yesterday
She was always ill recently and she took painkillers....unfortunately, she took too many painkillers and gave herself an accidental overdose and passed away
Her sister contacted me to say how much I meant to Jessica, how she always spoke of me everytime they spoke over the 4 years I knew her, how I was her biggest regret and she always loved me.
This information has really got me conflicted and mentally fucked....I am going from angry to upset nearly every 10 minutes...crying, then being angry at how she could do this....accidentally kill herself and also getting dropped on me all the stuff about her loving me all these years and regretting what happened between us and her mistakes.
What am I meant to do or cope with all this....I wont even be able to go to the funeral and pay my last respects.
RIP Jessica Rene Sapp 1982 - 2009 - I hope you find the peace in death, that you could never find in life.