i am, color blind...

[thenarcoleptic]

i feel lonely right now. maybe it's because i have nobody to talk too and i am listening to lonely music. have you ever felt compelled to say "I'm great" in response to "how are you?"...even if you dont really feel all that great? i just did. i don't even know why. i didn't have to say i was great, but i did anyway. i don't feel bad...but great was just an exaggeration. i am sick of working at a job that i hate. i hate how i always have to be on a time schedule. i wish there was a day where i could do things that i wanted to do, without any time limits on anything. i hate calling over and over again trying to get ahold of them but just getting their voice mail. it's so frustrating. i hate being away from Seth. i hate how i don't have as much fun with anyone as i have with him. i hate how i'm not very creative. i hate how i can't get projects that i started finished. i hate how i am gaining weight. i hate how i can't get myself to work out once in a while. i hate how my hair isn't long anymore. i want my long hair back. i hate how i am writing all this crap and complaining. oh well, i can have those kinds of posts sometimes right?

on a happier note, i love dressing up and dancing around my room. or just dancing. thank you Seth for dancing with me. I love you.

...on my way to church yesterday, a little girl looked at me through the window of the car she was in and waved at me...
...i smiled