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i hate it when life hits close to home...
i think in my head, im a lot older than 18. but then when responsibility arises once again, i always fall back on my young age. im as old as i want to be until i have something challenging in front of me.
" hey you should get two jobs and probably change the way you dress now cause youre going into the real world." and my response to that was " hey, i couldnt change the fact that im badass if i tried so whats the point in conforming my clothing to the others of this world who are lame?" dumbfounded, the opposer has no response and i am left feeling as frustrated as i did before.
i dont want to have to change myself for a job, a person, a certain school, a group of people or the world for that matter just because i may stick out a bit from the others.
ill tell you what i will do, ill get me a job. (even though i already have one but i need one while im living in san diego... damn it) but the job i do get will be one that doesnt require a buisness suite and blonde hair. > sorry to have to break it to you.
even though im fretting about my life as it is in the present tense, the Lord has the future and He knows exactly what to do. so i should stop my fretting and suck it up, realizing that for once, i should not try to control my life and the people in it so much. cause theyre going to do what they want to and so will i. even if that means my hairs gunna be pink and i have shoes that cost more than half my wardrobe because im in my prime and nobodies going to make me be a 40 year old housewife with a mountain of worries when im only 18...
and even though i dont want responsibility so much, i cant wait to move out on my own and i cant wait to start college and get my life in gear, be away from my family and from comfort of sitting on my butt even if that means that im struggling, i would rather have to scrounge for money and be a tight-wad about things than have someone breathing down my neck about every decision i make. i trust that i can make decisions based on good judgement so why cant others?
this is such a twisted circle.
i think in my head, im a lot older than 18. but then when responsibility arises once again, i always fall back on my young age. im as old as i want to be until i have something challenging in front of me.
" hey you should get two jobs and probably change the way you dress now cause youre going into the real world." and my response to that was " hey, i couldnt change the fact that im badass if i tried so whats the point in conforming my clothing to the others of this world who are lame?" dumbfounded, the opposer has no response and i am left feeling as frustrated as i did before.
i dont want to have to change myself for a job, a person, a certain school, a group of people or the world for that matter just because i may stick out a bit from the others.
ill tell you what i will do, ill get me a job. (even though i already have one but i need one while im living in san diego... damn it) but the job i do get will be one that doesnt require a buisness suite and blonde hair. > sorry to have to break it to you.
even though im fretting about my life as it is in the present tense, the Lord has the future and He knows exactly what to do. so i should stop my fretting and suck it up, realizing that for once, i should not try to control my life and the people in it so much. cause theyre going to do what they want to and so will i. even if that means my hairs gunna be pink and i have shoes that cost more than half my wardrobe because im in my prime and nobodies going to make me be a 40 year old housewife with a mountain of worries when im only 18...
and even though i dont want responsibility so much, i cant wait to move out on my own and i cant wait to start college and get my life in gear, be away from my family and from comfort of sitting on my butt even if that means that im struggling, i would rather have to scrounge for money and be a tight-wad about things than have someone breathing down my neck about every decision i make. i trust that i can make decisions based on good judgement so why cant others?
this is such a twisted circle.