THE LONGEST ENTRY EVER.
Wow yeah so today was fun. We didn't do much but yeah it doesnt take much for me and Britt to have fun. Ohh yeah after school we decided to walk into the middle school to see if the note we had left on a board was still there and I saw this kid. he was black. okay and so yeah he had this watch on and it was on of those spinners. and so yeah i
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Date: 12/10/2004 10:05:15 AM Eastern Standard Time
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Hi,
Well i think i should some things that need to be said.
I know i sound crazy to you. i was kinda a dick to you too. but just please let me explain some things.
wheneever id say you didnt love me, it was only cause i knew youd say you did. I loved hearing you tell me you lvoed me. it made me feel happy that you felt the saem way i felt about you.
i also always tried to leave cause i loved hearing you call me back. i loved when youd try and get me to stay because it made me feel wanted and like you needed to talk to me.
i always wanted to do different things sexually becuase it meant that we were comfortable enough with each other that it didnt matter how it was, just that it was. thats why i went down on you a lot too, because i knew it was soemthing you liekd and i loved seeeing how good you felt afterwards.
I loved how you took care of me when i was hurt or sick. you always took really good care of me. you even made me study for exams. no one else wouldve ever done that for me. and you cleaned my legs even though you got blood on you. but it didnt matter and you still did it.
I know ive messed up....bad. You have too. but i gues its too late for me. i cant leave brianna. not now that you have colin. i cant leave her and be alone for the potential chance to maybe be with you. maybe if you were definate, but youre not. you dont want me anymore. you said youd love me, but never be in love with me.
but im in love with you...
all the shit i had said before was true. except for that i never really had crushes on many girls. ijust liked knowing it made you jealous...that meant you cared about me and youd defend your rights to me.
but now you dont want me. you have someone else.
so im guessing you threw all my stuff away, and ill send your stuff back so you can either throw it away or sell it and ill send you back the 30$ you gave me for a board cuase you shouldnt have wastd your money on me. and i guess you can sell the ring or something cuase im sure you wont wear it now.
everything ive said, about me making the shit ive been telling you was a lie. the "lies" i was telling were truth. i still really am in love with you. i just lied about it to get myself out of trouble. you know me too well and you were able to call it. but i lied out of that too.
im sorry for everything. ill just leave you a lone now. im fighting a lost casue trying to get you to love em again. im sorry.
ryan
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RYAN
ok well apparently i am one of your best friends and you kno your my bud too, you kno that i care about you and i dont want you to get hurt. but listen, if you really wrote that email, there really is NO excuse for it this time. i dont kno what you are trying to do but this is so fucked up and im not gonna sit here and let you hurt brianna bc i love her to death and she deserves so much more than this. if you really do love lacey, then dump brianna. i kno it will hurt her, but its going to hurt her more and more the longer you lead her on. and then things are just gonna get worse. so jsut take a couple of days to really think about who you love. lacey or brianna. bc you cant go on doing this. and you can talk to me about it if you need to. im still here for you, i just think that if you are really writing that stuff, that it needs to quit. you need to figure out what you really want, even if that means hurting brianna
LACEY
okay well i kno that i dont kno you very well so i dont kno if you are the kind of person who would make this up or not. im assuming your not but im just not sure. so if you are making all this stuff up then you really need to quit bc theres no point to it. all its doing is hurting brianna. shes a great person and you kno that bc you used to like her. so if you are just tryin to start shit just stop bc its point less.
on the other hand, if ryan really is saying all this to you and sendin you all this shit about how much he loves you...JUST IGNORE HIM. its that simple. i mean if you really dont love him anymore then just ignore him and delete everything he sends you if he calls you, dont pick up, if he ims you, block him. just try to sort of erase his from your life. and if you ever feel like you miss him, just think of all the pain he caused you and all the times he treated you like shit. all things you didnt deserve. its hard at 1st but once you start living your lie you realize how much better things are when hes not around. and just think...if you ever did get back with him...wouldnt he just do this again?
well guys hopefully we all get this shit worked out...my main thing is that i just dont want brianna to get hurt
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okay yeah i didnt make that email. i wouldnt do that. it was definitley from him. and brianna i dont want you to think im doing this to hurt you or anything, i showed you because you deserve to know whats going on, i just wanted to help you.
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craig
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and yeah the thing people hang themselves from is called a noose.
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