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Hey everyone.
how are all of you?
I can't even remember who reads these anymore. i see only one or two people ever post nowadays.. and i start to wonder if the words i say here will be effective to me in the future.
But what the hell. It shouldn't matter right? This is my voice. And it's your choice to READ it. Extremely voluntary on your part.
Lately my life has changed. Dramatically. Things i never experienced, or thought i'd have to face have been emerging. Lawful responsibility. Scares. Banishment. Ect...
but then again. let me rephrase that.
Lately my life has changed. Dramatically. Things i never experienced, wonders i'd never knew have been presented. Independence, Enlightenment, Acceptance. Etc....
Priorities are different. I've faced the fact that my dream career is no where in sight, and unlikely in many ways. so i found something that would make me happy just doing it. it's weird, cause i've stopped a lot of the things i use to do. My voice isn't of importance to me. Just a relaxer. My piano and guitar skills have not improved if they in fact have not gotten worse.
Things are hitting me. Yet i'm loving every second of it. I'll never stop singing, i'll never stop playing.. but i won't worry about others approval now.
It does bother me that i am missing my friends. It's a deep darkness of sorts. Where were the days of halo? We ate, we laughed, we were loud. What happened to the times of batting practice? There were no balls, just lemons, cans, and one dollar items.
We've changed, trapped in a life of woman, money, technology, and substance. Each taking a part of us. There's a woman... can't be rediculous and shout and nerd out. There's money... some reason we can't go anywhere cause we have no money, now that we're use to the spending of it all. There's technology... Gotta reply to all our friends before we go anywhere. There's substance... Suddenly we don't want to do anything, or suddenly not accepted for having something they don't accept.
What happened? Bring your woman, bring your cars, your money, your computer, your drugs, your alcohol. Let's play! Endless hours on supersmash and halo. Picked fruit demolished with a swing. Sports played! Conversations deepen, secrets revealed.
The past is so depressing when it was so fantastic sometimes.
The past bring depression upon the present sometimes.
Expectation kills us all. And the fact that life is changing doesn't seem like a good excuse.
"Change is Nature. The part that we can influence. And it all starts, with a decision"
Come as you are, be who you are, and i guarantee with no limitations. We'll have a blast!
Ikaika.
how are all of you?
I can't even remember who reads these anymore. i see only one or two people ever post nowadays.. and i start to wonder if the words i say here will be effective to me in the future.
But what the hell. It shouldn't matter right? This is my voice. And it's your choice to READ it. Extremely voluntary on your part.
Lately my life has changed. Dramatically. Things i never experienced, or thought i'd have to face have been emerging. Lawful responsibility. Scares. Banishment. Ect...
but then again. let me rephrase that.
Lately my life has changed. Dramatically. Things i never experienced, wonders i'd never knew have been presented. Independence, Enlightenment, Acceptance. Etc....
Priorities are different. I've faced the fact that my dream career is no where in sight, and unlikely in many ways. so i found something that would make me happy just doing it. it's weird, cause i've stopped a lot of the things i use to do. My voice isn't of importance to me. Just a relaxer. My piano and guitar skills have not improved if they in fact have not gotten worse.
Things are hitting me. Yet i'm loving every second of it. I'll never stop singing, i'll never stop playing.. but i won't worry about others approval now.
It does bother me that i am missing my friends. It's a deep darkness of sorts. Where were the days of halo? We ate, we laughed, we were loud. What happened to the times of batting practice? There were no balls, just lemons, cans, and one dollar items.
We've changed, trapped in a life of woman, money, technology, and substance. Each taking a part of us. There's a woman... can't be rediculous and shout and nerd out. There's money... some reason we can't go anywhere cause we have no money, now that we're use to the spending of it all. There's technology... Gotta reply to all our friends before we go anywhere. There's substance... Suddenly we don't want to do anything, or suddenly not accepted for having something they don't accept.
What happened? Bring your woman, bring your cars, your money, your computer, your drugs, your alcohol. Let's play! Endless hours on supersmash and halo. Picked fruit demolished with a swing. Sports played! Conversations deepen, secrets revealed.
The past is so depressing when it was so fantastic sometimes.
The past bring depression upon the present sometimes.
Expectation kills us all. And the fact that life is changing doesn't seem like a good excuse.
"Change is Nature. The part that we can influence. And it all starts, with a decision"
Come as you are, be who you are, and i guarantee with no limitations. We'll have a blast!
Ikaika.