Rain? Wind? Global Uprising?
So it's hot. That's all I have to say about that....
Yeah right. It's been in the 90's, I live in a condo with a total eastern exposure so, at 700, it's hot as hell and I don't get to sleep. That leads to me being grouchy all day as the house continues to heat up. I WAAAAAAAAAAAANT somewhere colder!!!
I leave for Fairbanks in a month and change here...amazing how quickly it went from trying to figure out how to finish a CFI in Arizona to "let's go to AK and finish it with the guy who started it". Two weeks of pure, cold Alaskan air might just be what I need to freshen my outlook on life. That outlook has been grim. I realized all at once last night that I really am at a crossroads in life and have no answer for which path to take. I have an amazing band, and a great girlfriend. Both of them, however, are in a place that has no future for me. My heart is way too attached to both of them though so I know I can't pull up and leave, move to Alaska and forget all about them. I hope my will to resist the allure of the Last Frontier is strong while I'm there for two weeks. Or at least I can rationalize staying here for another year. Either way, I'm getting out of this condo that doesn't ventilate, has a suddenly flaky roommate and a ceiling/patio that both look ready to collapse at the next small wind gust.
Where I'm going? Who the fuck knows? I applied to a whole bunch of jobs up here in Prescott, nothing flying related of course. And then....I've got the option of teaching Jim Welch and possibly a couple other people at ArizAir...assuming that lasts. Even if it doesn't, maybe I can just find a plane. But really, I'm just biding my time, waiting for a big break in the flying world. Maybe I'm going to find out Alaska WAS my break and I was too attached to things in Arizona to know it. Or maybe my attachments in Arizona are my future? Spend a year with the band and make a comfortable living if we're as good as we think we are? Spend a year with Holly and find out she's the one for me? I don't know....I just need something. A break, a win, a tad bit of luck?
Yeah right. It's been in the 90's, I live in a condo with a total eastern exposure so, at 700, it's hot as hell and I don't get to sleep. That leads to me being grouchy all day as the house continues to heat up. I WAAAAAAAAAAAANT somewhere colder!!!
I leave for Fairbanks in a month and change here...amazing how quickly it went from trying to figure out how to finish a CFI in Arizona to "let's go to AK and finish it with the guy who started it". Two weeks of pure, cold Alaskan air might just be what I need to freshen my outlook on life. That outlook has been grim. I realized all at once last night that I really am at a crossroads in life and have no answer for which path to take. I have an amazing band, and a great girlfriend. Both of them, however, are in a place that has no future for me. My heart is way too attached to both of them though so I know I can't pull up and leave, move to Alaska and forget all about them. I hope my will to resist the allure of the Last Frontier is strong while I'm there for two weeks. Or at least I can rationalize staying here for another year. Either way, I'm getting out of this condo that doesn't ventilate, has a suddenly flaky roommate and a ceiling/patio that both look ready to collapse at the next small wind gust.
Where I'm going? Who the fuck knows? I applied to a whole bunch of jobs up here in Prescott, nothing flying related of course. And then....I've got the option of teaching Jim Welch and possibly a couple other people at ArizAir...assuming that lasts. Even if it doesn't, maybe I can just find a plane. But really, I'm just biding my time, waiting for a big break in the flying world. Maybe I'm going to find out Alaska WAS my break and I was too attached to things in Arizona to know it. Or maybe my attachments in Arizona are my future? Spend a year with the band and make a comfortable living if we're as good as we think we are? Spend a year with Holly and find out she's the one for me? I don't know....I just need something. A break, a win, a tad bit of luck?