see the difference?
i didn't sleep properly last night. i usually talk to caloy at night and sleep right after. but then while we were talking, i realized some things. it isn't anything big, but i think that's what kept me up. i was going to write this to make me fall asleep, but instead i went to my mom's room and watched tv till i actually slept.
i actually realized this even before we started talking. i noticed that we do have different lives, too. he, being the eldest son in his family, takes on responsibility even without his parents actually saying it. i'm guessing that's the role of the eldest. he tries to balance everything, and that's one thing i admire about him. at first, it was pretty hard for me to adjust to it, i just didn't know that there are guys like that. i thought that once guys end up having a girlfriend, he ends up making his world revolve around her.
but he pointed out something to me before, something about our relationship. he said that one thing that he enjoys about our relationship is that he didn't separate himself from his world. i was the one that came into it and as the cliche goes, "added color to it". even if it was cliche, it still got me. :)
as for me, being the youngest, i do have lesser responsibility, it may even be in the border line of having no responsibility at all. okay, its an exaggeration but it feels like it. admitting that makes me admit that some of the drama i gave him was just because i was being selfish. while he's doing stuff, i'm just here at home doing nothing getting bored. all i do is exercise, watch tv, and use the laptop. he goes out with his friends, while a lot of my friends aren't on sembreak which means i can't really go out with them on weekdays. i asked him last night if i came to a point of being clingy. i'm glad that he said i wasn't because that's the last thing i want to be...A CLINGY GIRLFRIEND. blech. i still told him to tell me if he feels like there is a hint of me being clingy and to tell me right away so that he doesn't get full of it.
i'm just happy that even if i would make drama, i still let him have his own world. and maybe, just maybe, still add color to it just like he said before. (yes caloy, i'm fishing.)
now that i have realized that, it somehow makes me want to "grow up". by that, i mean, doing things on my own as well. not necessarily have a lot of responsibility, just be more... independent, maybe.
_____________shameless way of asking for comments___________________
if you have any suggestions on what i can do, feel free to comment.
if any of my friends from reedley would want to meet up and hang out, TEXT ME!!!! dagnamit. i miss all of you.
if you know where to watch gossip girl episode 5, leave me the link or something. :)
i actually realized this even before we started talking. i noticed that we do have different lives, too. he, being the eldest son in his family, takes on responsibility even without his parents actually saying it. i'm guessing that's the role of the eldest. he tries to balance everything, and that's one thing i admire about him. at first, it was pretty hard for me to adjust to it, i just didn't know that there are guys like that. i thought that once guys end up having a girlfriend, he ends up making his world revolve around her.
but he pointed out something to me before, something about our relationship. he said that one thing that he enjoys about our relationship is that he didn't separate himself from his world. i was the one that came into it and as the cliche goes, "added color to it". even if it was cliche, it still got me. :)
as for me, being the youngest, i do have lesser responsibility, it may even be in the border line of having no responsibility at all. okay, its an exaggeration but it feels like it. admitting that makes me admit that some of the drama i gave him was just because i was being selfish. while he's doing stuff, i'm just here at home doing nothing getting bored. all i do is exercise, watch tv, and use the laptop. he goes out with his friends, while a lot of my friends aren't on sembreak which means i can't really go out with them on weekdays. i asked him last night if i came to a point of being clingy. i'm glad that he said i wasn't because that's the last thing i want to be...A CLINGY GIRLFRIEND. blech. i still told him to tell me if he feels like there is a hint of me being clingy and to tell me right away so that he doesn't get full of it.
i'm just happy that even if i would make drama, i still let him have his own world. and maybe, just maybe, still add color to it just like he said before. (yes caloy, i'm fishing.)
now that i have realized that, it somehow makes me want to "grow up". by that, i mean, doing things on my own as well. not necessarily have a lot of responsibility, just be more... independent, maybe.
_____________shameless way of asking for comments___________________
if you have any suggestions on what i can do, feel free to comment.
if any of my friends from reedley would want to meet up and hang out, TEXT ME!!!! dagnamit. i miss all of you.
if you know where to watch gossip girl episode 5, leave me the link or something. :)