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I really have trouble doing school lately. Today we have a delay for two hours. This means I could write an english essay, and study for spanish. Or I could keep refreshing the school closings page. I'm giving up soon though.
I've been reflecting on my life a lot lately. I'm pretty happy with it. The only sad thing is that this part of my life is over in six months. So, it puts me in a really hard spot with a lot of things. I feel almost like I'd rather not do anything new with my life right now, and ride out what's left. I know it's stupid, but I'm generally just scared of what could happen. I try not to think about the people who I missed out on getting to know. It's just really late right now, and that's depressing. Every event happens for a reason though, so I'm searching for that right now.
I'm also looking for work. I'm debating a fill time job this summer. like 8-4. It probably wouldn't blow that badly once I got used to it. I know New Way equipment takes a person going to college and lets them work every summer. I'm not really going to be doing anything else during the day other than hay with my uncle. If I don't work at new way, or get a part time job somewhere else ( I applied at a million places), then I'll do the full-time-babysitter position for my parents. It wouldn't not overly shitty if people would come over to see me while I'm stuck at home.
I feel generally good though, I know where I'm going to college. And I know who I will most likely room with and that's very settling sp???.
I'm happy though. Everything is really sorting out and I feel good about it.
I should still be getting a new car from chris too. He mentioned it sunday when I went to work. So maybe before I go to college I'll have a newer car.
I've been listening to new music now too. I like it.
oh yeah, school got canceled while I was writing this. thank you god. I'm going to go play need for speed with drew in his basement now.
I've been reflecting on my life a lot lately. I'm pretty happy with it. The only sad thing is that this part of my life is over in six months. So, it puts me in a really hard spot with a lot of things. I feel almost like I'd rather not do anything new with my life right now, and ride out what's left. I know it's stupid, but I'm generally just scared of what could happen. I try not to think about the people who I missed out on getting to know. It's just really late right now, and that's depressing. Every event happens for a reason though, so I'm searching for that right now.
I'm also looking for work. I'm debating a fill time job this summer. like 8-4. It probably wouldn't blow that badly once I got used to it. I know New Way equipment takes a person going to college and lets them work every summer. I'm not really going to be doing anything else during the day other than hay with my uncle. If I don't work at new way, or get a part time job somewhere else ( I applied at a million places), then I'll do the full-time-babysitter position for my parents. It wouldn't not overly shitty if people would come over to see me while I'm stuck at home.
I feel generally good though, I know where I'm going to college. And I know who I will most likely room with and that's very settling sp???.
I'm happy though. Everything is really sorting out and I feel good about it.
I should still be getting a new car from chris too. He mentioned it sunday when I went to work. So maybe before I go to college I'll have a newer car.
I've been listening to new music now too. I like it.
oh yeah, school got canceled while I was writing this. thank you god. I'm going to go play need for speed with drew in his basement now.