It's been a long time...
"I felt like putting a bullet between the eyes of every panda that wouldn't screw to save it's species. I wanted to open the dump valves of oil tankers and smother all the French beachers I'd never see. I wanted to breathe smoke." - Fight Club
Hello all, it's been a long time. I know. I've been a busy girl, leaving my home, my family, my friends, and my life behind to go to college here at glorious SUNY Purchase. Life is good here, for the most part. A lot of work, the good kind. The kind that gives you the comfort of knowing you are doing what you love and what you want because you can. So many people don't make it this far, so many people would love to be in my shoes. And whenever I'm feeling down, I can think about some hopeless Wal-Mart employee who is dreaming of furthering their education and becoming something great. Because that person would love to be me.
So I'm going to do it. Study, learn, try my hardest. I didn't come here to party, I came here to work. And I'm not going to waste my parents money. Many people think that college changes a person, but if they're strong, they'll still be themselves. And I'm not easily influenced, even though I'm young. I won't always want to be here, there will be times when I'll be ready to throw in the towel because I'm tired, because I'm lonely, or because I'm so homesick I can't stand it. But mommy can't come pick me up and take me back to my old life, that part of it is over.
No more crying. No more being sad. I'm here now and that's the way it's going to stay.