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xHesSoScenex (2:22:30 AM): hey, i happened to read your away message and it looked like something i would have sent you in the past, i know it isn't i just mean like it is the way i would have posted something for you in an away message. i guess i just want to say i'm sorry if there are any scars or anything that still exist from me. i dont even really know why im sending this, i know youve moved on, i just happened to see that and think about it. yeah sorry
sometimes my heart stops beating.
it just doesnt.
there is one.
beat beat beat beat
there is taht pause.
it happens everyday at least once.
i die.
i die at elast once everyday
from soemthing, anyhting really
the brightest colors i have ever seen.
the way my tires grip wet asphault.
the though of his voice and how i wish he never existed.
becasue something's you will never forget.
and most of the time you never want to remember them.
somtimes its hard to breath
inhale
exhale
inhale
the exhale gets really shaky
and it hurts to breath in again.
it makes those few minutes tough.
acting so tough
like nothing bothers you anymore these days
yet the slightest thign can make you cry
like the way leaves dance around your car like a parade
a smile from a stranger you know you will never meet.
he says hes sorry for these tiny scars.
"you say that i hurt you in a voice like a prayer, you say that i hurt you and your voice is like a prayer well maybe i hurt you sometimes but lets contrast and compare... lift up your shirt, the wound isnt there"
and yeah i believe him.
thank you sir.
thank you for your apology
it means so much
in fact
my heart stopped beating.
my memories of you are so dulled down.
like the misisng piece meets the big O
you've been rolling away from me for so long
you no longer have any features
just a circle.
a plain dull circle.
and thats how id like to keep you
ill lock you in drawer somewhere
and let a thick layer of dust
coat your skin before i take you out again.
sometimes all i miss is your smile.
soemtimes all i want to do is forget it.
sometimes my heart stops beating.
it just doesnt.
there is one.
beat beat beat beat
there is taht pause.
it happens everyday at least once.
i die.
i die at elast once everyday
from soemthing, anyhting really
the brightest colors i have ever seen.
the way my tires grip wet asphault.
the though of his voice and how i wish he never existed.
becasue something's you will never forget.
and most of the time you never want to remember them.
somtimes its hard to breath
inhale
exhale
inhale
the exhale gets really shaky
and it hurts to breath in again.
it makes those few minutes tough.
acting so tough
like nothing bothers you anymore these days
yet the slightest thign can make you cry
like the way leaves dance around your car like a parade
a smile from a stranger you know you will never meet.
he says hes sorry for these tiny scars.
"you say that i hurt you in a voice like a prayer, you say that i hurt you and your voice is like a prayer well maybe i hurt you sometimes but lets contrast and compare... lift up your shirt, the wound isnt there"
and yeah i believe him.
thank you sir.
thank you for your apology
it means so much
in fact
my heart stopped beating.
my memories of you are so dulled down.
like the misisng piece meets the big O
you've been rolling away from me for so long
you no longer have any features
just a circle.
a plain dull circle.
and thats how id like to keep you
ill lock you in drawer somewhere
and let a thick layer of dust
coat your skin before i take you out again.
sometimes all i miss is your smile.
soemtimes all i want to do is forget it.