for all their hearts' desires
When I stop writing, I get into a lot of trouble.
It's like I need to write it down to assure myself I'm taking it all in -- all the things I do and hear and see and definitely want to remember.
I haven't written in so long, and I miss writing, about us. Having friends who listen must have spoiled me. Today I wrote an email to a couple of friends, thanking them for listening. Because where will I be if I didn't have friends who are expert at listening, who gladly process my thoughts for me, and in that sense silence my many fears.
Euge took me to Baclaran Tuesday night, and as we sat there I almost couldn't pray. On the way there I received a message from an old friend, who kindly reminded me of that previous phase in my life, and my then constant prayer. I just thought about that while I sat on the pew.
We lit a lot of candles. I tried my best to remember everyone and their hearts' desires.
The truth is, love will find you in whatever form or shape or sound, and when it comes, your task is to be ready. It means you are ready again.
And I realized, sometimes there is so much love around me but I tend to push it all away! It's a beautiful gift and for a while I haven't seen it that way.
So on to the brighter side -- there should be a sense of calm knowing you will never be let go, and i'm slowly, slowly, inching my way back in, remembering how it once was, keeping in mind there are many things to look forward to, and someone out there is truly ready for me.
So maybe I don't have to deal with everything all at once.
It's like I need to write it down to assure myself I'm taking it all in -- all the things I do and hear and see and definitely want to remember.
I haven't written in so long, and I miss writing, about us. Having friends who listen must have spoiled me. Today I wrote an email to a couple of friends, thanking them for listening. Because where will I be if I didn't have friends who are expert at listening, who gladly process my thoughts for me, and in that sense silence my many fears.
Euge took me to Baclaran Tuesday night, and as we sat there I almost couldn't pray. On the way there I received a message from an old friend, who kindly reminded me of that previous phase in my life, and my then constant prayer. I just thought about that while I sat on the pew.
We lit a lot of candles. I tried my best to remember everyone and their hearts' desires.
The truth is, love will find you in whatever form or shape or sound, and when it comes, your task is to be ready. It means you are ready again.
And I realized, sometimes there is so much love around me but I tend to push it all away! It's a beautiful gift and for a while I haven't seen it that way.
So on to the brighter side -- there should be a sense of calm knowing you will never be let go, and i'm slowly, slowly, inching my way back in, remembering how it once was, keeping in mind there are many things to look forward to, and someone out there is truly ready for me.
So maybe I don't have to deal with everything all at once.