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2 f-ing comments about my new job, thanks guys. I love you too.
I'm just... upset.
Selby told me today that she's gotten a summer job. Which is good. But it's in Wetaskiwin. Which is bad. Because that means she's leaving me for the summer.
I'm going to be so lonely. I have three very close friends and some acquaintances, whom I don't spend any time with. My three close friends: Sarah, Leah, and Selby. Sarah's away at her opera school all summer. Leah's in school right now, and will be starting her clinical round in surgery in a few days. She'll be busy and tired. And now Selby's leaving. I'm basically going to be spending the entire summer with my own company. Which is fine, to a point. But I had to do this last summer. It wasn't so bad at first, because I had been living by myself, virtually, for the last two years in the dorms (I didn't have a roommate). But about half way through, I went... crazy. I think this is probably going to happen again.
It was not a happy time and I don't wish to go through it again. But I probably will. I don't know how it could be avoided.
She starts on June 2nd. Oh, and by the way, it's at the museum my mom works at (wonder how she got the job, hey? ;) where we did the History Road thing.
*sigh* Oh well. What's done is done, I guess.
Don't think I won't miss her too, she's my best friend. But this is the first job that came up and so I took it, I need money somehow. I wasn't even garunteed I'd find a job in the city.
I just wish someone was happy for me. I mean she can't even be happy for me and she's my best friend. Yes my mom works there, and yes I got the job, but I got it because they know me and they know who I am and how I work. They know I'll do a good job, my mom didn't even know I got the job until I called her and told her, it's not like she did me a favor and got me a job. I will do a good job of this. What a way to wake up to this.
It just makes me so sad to see her sad and upset. I didn't mean to leave her. I am going to be up here as much as I can and I hope she'll meet me half way and come home as much as she can. Ugh I feel so gross about all of this and I wish I could just be excited.
On to a new topic. I went to my dance wind up last night. It was so fun!! Not everyone was there, but I enjoyed myself. We ate a lot of food. I mean a lot. Well everyone but our very own little miss anorexic. Everyone liked my brownies though! Go me!! We watched a couple dance tapes. We watched a Pas de Deux from Crystal's trip from Russia. Man they're good there!! Everyone hated the girls. But I don't, I think they're beautiful, and yeah, they're better than me, but what do you do?! We also watched both our shows. It was fun. They went over pretty well. I mean you always pick yourself apart, but in general it was good stuff. It was the last time I was going to see some of those girls for a while at least. I'll miss them.
Well I'm off to do......nothing for now. Later I'll pack and clean up some more. Hope you all have a fantastic day. I'm out.
I'm just... upset.
Selby told me today that she's gotten a summer job. Which is good. But it's in Wetaskiwin. Which is bad. Because that means she's leaving me for the summer.
I'm going to be so lonely. I have three very close friends and some acquaintances, whom I don't spend any time with. My three close friends: Sarah, Leah, and Selby. Sarah's away at her opera school all summer. Leah's in school right now, and will be starting her clinical round in surgery in a few days. She'll be busy and tired. And now Selby's leaving. I'm basically going to be spending the entire summer with my own company. Which is fine, to a point. But I had to do this last summer. It wasn't so bad at first, because I had been living by myself, virtually, for the last two years in the dorms (I didn't have a roommate). But about half way through, I went... crazy. I think this is probably going to happen again.
It was not a happy time and I don't wish to go through it again. But I probably will. I don't know how it could be avoided.
She starts on June 2nd. Oh, and by the way, it's at the museum my mom works at (wonder how she got the job, hey? ;) where we did the History Road thing.
*sigh* Oh well. What's done is done, I guess.
Don't think I won't miss her too, she's my best friend. But this is the first job that came up and so I took it, I need money somehow. I wasn't even garunteed I'd find a job in the city.
I just wish someone was happy for me. I mean she can't even be happy for me and she's my best friend. Yes my mom works there, and yes I got the job, but I got it because they know me and they know who I am and how I work. They know I'll do a good job, my mom didn't even know I got the job until I called her and told her, it's not like she did me a favor and got me a job. I will do a good job of this. What a way to wake up to this.
It just makes me so sad to see her sad and upset. I didn't mean to leave her. I am going to be up here as much as I can and I hope she'll meet me half way and come home as much as she can. Ugh I feel so gross about all of this and I wish I could just be excited.
On to a new topic. I went to my dance wind up last night. It was so fun!! Not everyone was there, but I enjoyed myself. We ate a lot of food. I mean a lot. Well everyone but our very own little miss anorexic. Everyone liked my brownies though! Go me!! We watched a couple dance tapes. We watched a Pas de Deux from Crystal's trip from Russia. Man they're good there!! Everyone hated the girls. But I don't, I think they're beautiful, and yeah, they're better than me, but what do you do?! We also watched both our shows. It was fun. They went over pretty well. I mean you always pick yourself apart, but in general it was good stuff. It was the last time I was going to see some of those girls for a while at least. I'll miss them.
Well I'm off to do......nothing for now. Later I'll pack and clean up some more. Hope you all have a fantastic day. I'm out.