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[themightynush]

i just realized that when nemo died i lost all the poetry i've written since i got to school. it probably wans't any good and it wasn't even that much i dont think, but the file called anushkas poems that i keep on my desktop sort of chronicles my life in a weird way- i really like having a record of what i'm thinking, what i'm writing about. the last poem is some crap iwrote around my birthday last year, and then something i wrote on virginia woolf today, and i hate that big gap. and the thing that scares me the smost is that i dont ever remember what filled it! i reamember i wrote one thing about president bush being reelected but that is the only thing i remember, and i know i've written more. its actually terrifying to me- that its gone, that i dont remember it.
i know i'm not enough of an artist for this to be a big deal, but it still makes me a little sad. and worried that i dont remember!