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well. my mom nixed the idea of me and jamie going up to lopez. because it might snow. sdgjfh. i know how to drive, thanks. i have to tell him now, and it's going to suck. he was totally excited. also, i can't stop thinking about ed. i can't believe he started doing coke. my ed! i don't know why it upsets me so much, but it does. maybe because i know that when he does something, he does something, as in he does a lot of it. like his drinking. he doesn't drink one or two beers, he drinks like ten. jamie said that he had known about it, and had heard that mike had gotten him into it. fucking mike. he did point out that mike didn't necessarily force him to do it, and just because he's practically a cokehead now doesn't necessarily make him a bad person..and i know these things, but it still upsets me a ton. i worry about him. plus, i miss him. so those things combined make for an unhappy emma.