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the only thing that sucks more than not being happy is being depressed. yes, there is a difference. depression has no real logical bones to it; it's more like getting an itch on the side of your foot somehwere, only you can't scratch it for some reason, but it remains to itch really really bad.
that is what im going through. i can't put my finger on it, but i think it has something to do with school. i know i shouldn't feel sad, or bad about anything, rather just the opposite. i should be jumping for joy and full of excitement about starting over with a new semester - but i'm not.
maybe it's because i've done that so many times - started over. clean slate. Tabula rasa. It's like I am starting to give up on myself. I've been thinking for a while that maybe im just not cut out for college right now. maybe i do need to grow up a little more first - but i always ignored it. except, now my family is starting to hint at the same thing.
oh! how the times have changed since preschool. Take me back to when life was simple and cupts had sippie tops - i've spilled far to many drinks as of late.
that is what im going through. i can't put my finger on it, but i think it has something to do with school. i know i shouldn't feel sad, or bad about anything, rather just the opposite. i should be jumping for joy and full of excitement about starting over with a new semester - but i'm not.
maybe it's because i've done that so many times - started over. clean slate. Tabula rasa. It's like I am starting to give up on myself. I've been thinking for a while that maybe im just not cut out for college right now. maybe i do need to grow up a little more first - but i always ignored it. except, now my family is starting to hint at the same thing.
oh! how the times have changed since preschool. Take me back to when life was simple and cupts had sippie tops - i've spilled far to many drinks as of late.