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Amazed I sat, staring into the blank television with old time radio music playing in the background. "The way-of the future", he repeated over and over. It was at this moment I realized the most important thought i've ever had (and i've had a few thoughts).
You see - this "way-of the future guy" was real successful like. Made lots of money in the drilling industry, lots of movies, and, mostly, lots of aero planes. Except, he had this thing. This obsession with germs thing. This obsession with perfection and cleasliness. In face, his obsession became so bad that it led one of the greatest things that ever happened in his life to leave him. This saddens me, as i've experienced, maybe not on as grande a scale, but maybe, such an atrocity in my life.
On a large scale, the movie was long and sad and anti-climactic (yet still awesome). But at that moment, when he sat in the room, alone, in a worse condition than ever - I realized that his uncontrolable obsession with this perfection destroyed one of the few things he truly cherrished in the world, his "one true love" if you will, as they hint at time and time again, they were perfect for eachother. It turns out that she was the only person who could have saved him from his own uncleanliness.
I got to thinking of how many things that we see fit to obsess about that lead us to sacrifice the things in life we truly cherrish. The things we can't live without in the end, although it seems like they don't fit in for now. I talking about - in the long run, the big shot, the really important things that you can look back on and say "yes, i am truly glad i made this decision". How many times in our lives do we experience an opportunity to really be changed, but we are afraid to ruin our own little perfections we've developed about what life is and who we are?
Maybe what i'm saying has already been said in different words, but think about it for a minute. Every day that goes by at least every single one of us decides not to take a chance. At least every one of us decisdes to stay the course and further pursue the route that they decided is the cleanest and "most perfect", when what they don't realize is one of those other paths might have been the chance they needed to make it all "perfect".
I think im getting ahead of myself, so i'll try and rewrite this mess in the morning.
in other news - bah. i'm a lonely, sad little boy with no one to play with and no one to give me presents...and stuff.
but seriously - i dunno, i've kinda felt lonely these past few days, well, few weeks. but mostly the past few days. i dunno - maybe it was just that movie that shined the light upon the entire subject - but movies have been doing that to me recently, ones that never used to. They've been hitting a soft spot, a void almost. one that has been filled before, but nothing in my life seems to be filling it now. alas - time to go out, move on, live an experience or two, and get to know myself a little more. On to clemson! (but first, NY).
You see - this "way-of the future guy" was real successful like. Made lots of money in the drilling industry, lots of movies, and, mostly, lots of aero planes. Except, he had this thing. This obsession with germs thing. This obsession with perfection and cleasliness. In face, his obsession became so bad that it led one of the greatest things that ever happened in his life to leave him. This saddens me, as i've experienced, maybe not on as grande a scale, but maybe, such an atrocity in my life.
On a large scale, the movie was long and sad and anti-climactic (yet still awesome). But at that moment, when he sat in the room, alone, in a worse condition than ever - I realized that his uncontrolable obsession with this perfection destroyed one of the few things he truly cherrished in the world, his "one true love" if you will, as they hint at time and time again, they were perfect for eachother. It turns out that she was the only person who could have saved him from his own uncleanliness.
I got to thinking of how many things that we see fit to obsess about that lead us to sacrifice the things in life we truly cherrish. The things we can't live without in the end, although it seems like they don't fit in for now. I talking about - in the long run, the big shot, the really important things that you can look back on and say "yes, i am truly glad i made this decision". How many times in our lives do we experience an opportunity to really be changed, but we are afraid to ruin our own little perfections we've developed about what life is and who we are?
Maybe what i'm saying has already been said in different words, but think about it for a minute. Every day that goes by at least every single one of us decides not to take a chance. At least every one of us decisdes to stay the course and further pursue the route that they decided is the cleanest and "most perfect", when what they don't realize is one of those other paths might have been the chance they needed to make it all "perfect".
I think im getting ahead of myself, so i'll try and rewrite this mess in the morning.
in other news - bah. i'm a lonely, sad little boy with no one to play with and no one to give me presents...and stuff.
but seriously - i dunno, i've kinda felt lonely these past few days, well, few weeks. but mostly the past few days. i dunno - maybe it was just that movie that shined the light upon the entire subject - but movies have been doing that to me recently, ones that never used to. They've been hitting a soft spot, a void almost. one that has been filled before, but nothing in my life seems to be filling it now. alas - time to go out, move on, live an experience or two, and get to know myself a little more. On to clemson! (but first, NY).