Caught a light sneeze... otherwise known as adolescence.
Well, it's been quite some time since my last entry. The first day of Spring Break to be exact. (See I told you I would never keep up.)
Today seemed to be an okay day really. Just that and I realized yet again that I hate high school. It's dumb, really... when you think about it.
My high school analogy... High school is like someone with cancer who has only six months to live. You know it's a harsh and sad reality that they are going to die soon, and you think you are prepared for it, but you realize you will never really be prepared for it. This in some way, is high school. You are never really prepared for it, no matter how hard you try.
This strange comparison somehow ties into my feelings about people in general. People are evil. Well, a large portion of them are, in highschool, but there are those select few who are always good, and will be good for the rest of their lives. Those are the people who you get up in the morning and go to hell- hole you know as high school just to see them and to be near them. It's sad really. The things that people do to each other. I'm tired of always trying to impress people. I've spent my whole freaking life trying to impress people and it never does any good. Yes, people tell me that I make them laugh sometimes, but is that ever really good enough? I don't know. I always feel like I do people more damage than good, and it's a terrible feeling. I am grateful for all the things I have, and I realize that now,(or at least I'm trying to) but i just can't help but think that i'm stuck between wanting to do more and then just leaving people alone. It's a daily fight. Adolescence... you'll be a trophy on my wall some day.
My apologies for this not making any sense.
Night.
Today seemed to be an okay day really. Just that and I realized yet again that I hate high school. It's dumb, really... when you think about it.
My high school analogy... High school is like someone with cancer who has only six months to live. You know it's a harsh and sad reality that they are going to die soon, and you think you are prepared for it, but you realize you will never really be prepared for it. This in some way, is high school. You are never really prepared for it, no matter how hard you try.
This strange comparison somehow ties into my feelings about people in general. People are evil. Well, a large portion of them are, in highschool, but there are those select few who are always good, and will be good for the rest of their lives. Those are the people who you get up in the morning and go to hell- hole you know as high school just to see them and to be near them. It's sad really. The things that people do to each other. I'm tired of always trying to impress people. I've spent my whole freaking life trying to impress people and it never does any good. Yes, people tell me that I make them laugh sometimes, but is that ever really good enough? I don't know. I always feel like I do people more damage than good, and it's a terrible feeling. I am grateful for all the things I have, and I realize that now,(or at least I'm trying to) but i just can't help but think that i'm stuck between wanting to do more and then just leaving people alone. It's a daily fight. Adolescence... you'll be a trophy on my wall some day.
My apologies for this not making any sense.
Night.