Hm. Am I updating a lot latey? For me?
I think I am, perhaps. Ah, well. I'm feeling friendly. IE: Like blathering.
I need to stop stalking like, everyone on brawl. And DO MY HOMEWORK. asdjkshdkajshd holy shit it's 3 am.
But that's not the point. I guess the point is that what with all the self-evalutaion posts on my flist of late and my own frighteningly similar post this summer in mind, well. I have to think about whether I've achieved anything in the realm of getting people to see me as I really am, don't I?
And startlingly enough, I think I have. But not how I intended. Because, well. When I think back on it, the people I hang out with now are like, an entirely different group. And I'm not quite sure how that happened. However, on the upside of that, all the preconcieved ideas of who I am seem to have flown the proverbial coup. Which is a pleasant escape, really. BEcause I'm really, well, NOT who I was in high school. I've grown up some. Changed. Have a distinctly different outlook on life [well, still maintaining the slight obsession with grades. But that's a good thing to hold onto, methinks]. I like myself for myself, not for any relationship or interaction I have with other people. I'm living a life I choose and I want to live, every minute of it. Online and off. Weird, huh?
Last semester was tough, sort of a transitional thing. Trying to hold onto old things while reaching for newer ones. It didn't work out in the end, not really. But, well. I'm happy.
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I never knew that being the mad photographer at a birthday party would gain me so many facebook friends [though this one...distinctively themed birthday party. ^^;]
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And as I'm [still] almost through with PoT [HW looms threateningly behind me]....where do I acquire download links for all these OVAs half my flist has been having joygasms over for the last few days? I am Intrigued.
I need to stop stalking like, everyone on brawl. And DO MY HOMEWORK. asdjkshdkajshd holy shit it's 3 am.
But that's not the point. I guess the point is that what with all the self-evalutaion posts on my flist of late and my own frighteningly similar post this summer in mind, well. I have to think about whether I've achieved anything in the realm of getting people to see me as I really am, don't I?
And startlingly enough, I think I have. But not how I intended. Because, well. When I think back on it, the people I hang out with now are like, an entirely different group. And I'm not quite sure how that happened. However, on the upside of that, all the preconcieved ideas of who I am seem to have flown the proverbial coup. Which is a pleasant escape, really. BEcause I'm really, well, NOT who I was in high school. I've grown up some. Changed. Have a distinctly different outlook on life [well, still maintaining the slight obsession with grades. But that's a good thing to hold onto, methinks]. I like myself for myself, not for any relationship or interaction I have with other people. I'm living a life I choose and I want to live, every minute of it. Online and off. Weird, huh?
Last semester was tough, sort of a transitional thing. Trying to hold onto old things while reaching for newer ones. It didn't work out in the end, not really. But, well. I'm happy.
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I never knew that being the mad photographer at a birthday party would gain me so many facebook friends [though this one...distinctively themed birthday party. ^^;]
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And as I'm [still] almost through with PoT [HW looms threateningly behind me]....where do I acquire download links for all these OVAs half my flist has been having joygasms over for the last few days? I am Intrigued.