back to old habits
wow ive totally abandoned live journal. i still love you. sorry. cam-whoring just isnt my thing these days tho (as in taking lots of photos of myself). i spose this could spark it all again but ill try not to travel that road again. creates too much tension between friends who perhaps arent as confident in themselves as some. so armed with chris brown bouncing in my ears and filling me with the urge to dance, i will write one of my first blog entries in a loooooong time.
today is the first day of school. term two. 120 days left and im out of here! lots of things have occured to me. this cute little guy in my homeroom who i have befriended is in yr 9 and has had a gf for almost a year. its the strangest thing, looking at those younger than you! thinking that once that used to be me. insecure, social reject. lol. and also thinking that this school seems so un-new. i have explored every corner, gone to every nook and cranny (ahahaha remember the nook kids!). but sometimes when you came to school it would seem like it was this big jungle, wild, unexplored, filled with potentially scary situations. gone are the days my friend. it just occured to me that thats also where motivation comes from. im longing for something new. cant wait to get out. prove myself. ahaha so cliche. anyway!
back to guys. do i dare to go back there? i spose. ive talked enough crap about kyle etc on this thing. lol. btw he has a ne gf now. i hav new interests:) nooooo i cant keep this up. i cant talk about guys here. thats for moments of crazy feeling that i record in my visual journal. so whats new...
life. i really have to get my ass into gear. i want to have enough money to lead a really confortable lifestyle in whatever it is i end up doing. i need to decide what it is i wanna do. first i want to travel. to morocco, to italy, to greece, to africa, to america. spread my wings. i used to think taking a gap year was like a massive step back in the wrong direction, but so many people do it. on the other hand i still think that its a massive step back. oh well i spose ill see.
anyway enough about the future. what about a tear-inducing recount of the past. because the past seems to get me so bad. i live in the moment but the side effects of this is that the moment lingers for so much longer than you want it to. you cant let it go and you end up getting sad when you should be happily reminiscing! i had good holidays- apart from a few anger and depression filled days to do with a certain someoneeee who i thought had started to randomly ignore me! but that woul fall to much under the guy category to start discussing it. ohh but i want to. lol. all over the place!
get low is on. sluttiest song ever. best party song ever. i keep thinking about what it would be like to go to a new school. say mansfield or state high. interesting social experiment. i dunno- i spose im just a social whore.
'now back back back it up! now stop then wiggle wit it'
that was lil john n the eastside boyz message! lol.
ive been going to straddie alot lately. 3 times these hols. favourite time? all of them. friend-wise=camping, boywise=wdnesday. ys you know what i mean. i want to go to the coast.*song change* jlo and ll cool j. best song EVER. yeah im such a hip hop retard. anyway i am soooo wanting to dance right now. in the graphics rooms in view of mr campbell? yeah no thanks!!!
this weekend redeemer plays chac for a warmup. should be interesting. me n prue are gonna go watch our boys get flattened by the likes of jared etc from redeemer. lol. i still havent met up withjordan.
*you got you got you got what it takes to make me leave my man. you got you got you got what it takes to make this boy bad. its hard to control myself and to hold myself back from jumpin on ya like i wanna like i wanna wanna*
more lyrics.
im working tomorrow night. wonder who with? anyway i have a feeling i should stop this entry now. its just pretty much whatever is coming up in my brain transferred onto the screen by my dodgy typing fingers. zzz zzzz zzzzz.
ill post some pics later. ohhhh back into old habits. lol
t x
YSL ZIMMERMANN MARCJACOBS TSUBI TIFFANY&CO SASS+BIDE LEE DIOR NINARICCI
today is the first day of school. term two. 120 days left and im out of here! lots of things have occured to me. this cute little guy in my homeroom who i have befriended is in yr 9 and has had a gf for almost a year. its the strangest thing, looking at those younger than you! thinking that once that used to be me. insecure, social reject. lol. and also thinking that this school seems so un-new. i have explored every corner, gone to every nook and cranny (ahahaha remember the nook kids!). but sometimes when you came to school it would seem like it was this big jungle, wild, unexplored, filled with potentially scary situations. gone are the days my friend. it just occured to me that thats also where motivation comes from. im longing for something new. cant wait to get out. prove myself. ahaha so cliche. anyway!
back to guys. do i dare to go back there? i spose. ive talked enough crap about kyle etc on this thing. lol. btw he has a ne gf now. i hav new interests:) nooooo i cant keep this up. i cant talk about guys here. thats for moments of crazy feeling that i record in my visual journal. so whats new...
life. i really have to get my ass into gear. i want to have enough money to lead a really confortable lifestyle in whatever it is i end up doing. i need to decide what it is i wanna do. first i want to travel. to morocco, to italy, to greece, to africa, to america. spread my wings. i used to think taking a gap year was like a massive step back in the wrong direction, but so many people do it. on the other hand i still think that its a massive step back. oh well i spose ill see.
anyway enough about the future. what about a tear-inducing recount of the past. because the past seems to get me so bad. i live in the moment but the side effects of this is that the moment lingers for so much longer than you want it to. you cant let it go and you end up getting sad when you should be happily reminiscing! i had good holidays- apart from a few anger and depression filled days to do with a certain someoneeee who i thought had started to randomly ignore me! but that woul fall to much under the guy category to start discussing it. ohh but i want to. lol. all over the place!
get low is on. sluttiest song ever. best party song ever. i keep thinking about what it would be like to go to a new school. say mansfield or state high. interesting social experiment. i dunno- i spose im just a social whore.
'now back back back it up! now stop then wiggle wit it'
that was lil john n the eastside boyz message! lol.
ive been going to straddie alot lately. 3 times these hols. favourite time? all of them. friend-wise=camping, boywise=wdnesday. ys you know what i mean. i want to go to the coast.*song change* jlo and ll cool j. best song EVER. yeah im such a hip hop retard. anyway i am soooo wanting to dance right now. in the graphics rooms in view of mr campbell? yeah no thanks!!!
this weekend redeemer plays chac for a warmup. should be interesting. me n prue are gonna go watch our boys get flattened by the likes of jared etc from redeemer. lol. i still havent met up withjordan.
*you got you got you got what it takes to make me leave my man. you got you got you got what it takes to make this boy bad. its hard to control myself and to hold myself back from jumpin on ya like i wanna like i wanna wanna*
more lyrics.
im working tomorrow night. wonder who with? anyway i have a feeling i should stop this entry now. its just pretty much whatever is coming up in my brain transferred onto the screen by my dodgy typing fingers. zzz zzzz zzzzz.
ill post some pics later. ohhhh back into old habits. lol
t x
YSL ZIMMERMANN MARCJACOBS TSUBI TIFFANY&CO SASS+BIDE LEE DIOR NINARICCI