this feeling
wtf do u call this? that? whatever feeling.
holy shit.
its just amazing. this day. these moments ive been having.
the storm, the rain, the hail, the everything of this day.
the love and support from the parentials. the reassurance from my father. the venting.
watching garden state with hobbes on my bed with a blankie. the sound of the rain.
knowing how things have been changing.
knowing that i'm thankful that i'm no longer numb.
things have to change. i like to change. i want to change.
its exciting, scary, nerve-racking, and daring. fuck what others think.
sorri this is my matt thing. if u ever have talked to me, i'm well known for this.
2004 was change. lots of changes. lots of relationship developments.
what will 2005 bring? o well thats somewhere forward. im focusing on now.
i dont want this feeling to go away. please dont go away.
im going to miss home. what i've known as home. its only a house though.
but im letting go and moving on. heck i've had a lot of practice with other stuff lately.
i got my family & friends. how lonely an existance would b without those.
i truly feel disheartened when i find out when people are lacking those.
well forgive me.
holy shit.
its just amazing. this day. these moments ive been having.
the storm, the rain, the hail, the everything of this day.
the love and support from the parentials. the reassurance from my father. the venting.
watching garden state with hobbes on my bed with a blankie. the sound of the rain.
knowing how things have been changing.
knowing that i'm thankful that i'm no longer numb.
things have to change. i like to change. i want to change.
its exciting, scary, nerve-racking, and daring. fuck what others think.
sorri this is my matt thing. if u ever have talked to me, i'm well known for this.
2004 was change. lots of changes. lots of relationship developments.
what will 2005 bring? o well thats somewhere forward. im focusing on now.
i dont want this feeling to go away. please dont go away.
im going to miss home. what i've known as home. its only a house though.
but im letting go and moving on. heck i've had a lot of practice with other stuff lately.
i got my family & friends. how lonely an existance would b without those.
i truly feel disheartened when i find out when people are lacking those.
well forgive me.