kinda upset
hey well everythings goin ok i guess.... went to see atreyu last week with alex ashely and dana... was awesome... i dont know i feel upset and i really dont understand..... everytime i call alex hes either too busy to tlak to me or on the other line.... im sorry but come on... and when he says he can tlak to me we'll talk for like 5 mins and then he says he has to go... and its not right i mean freakin aye.... last night we didnt get to talk cuz he was tired and he said we'd talk all day after i get home from my meeting for work.... and so i came home and called him and he said he had to get dressed and then he'll call me .. well i gave him an hour and then i called him back and he said oh i still have to put my shoes on and ill call u back when i get in the car in like 5 mins... about 15-20 mins go by and then i called him back and we were talkin and then he has to go again... i havent really got to talk to him in days cuz in class hes always in a bad mood and its really makin me mad i mean please sir dont be like this .... it seems like hes doin this on purpose like hes trying to hurt me.... on thursday i guess he says i was bein mean to him cuz he was makin me mad .... and then he got mad cuz i went over and sat with dj and was talkin to dj during art instead of him... well he was in a bad mood and i didnt want to end up in one.... and he drew me a picture with like a heart and my name it looks really cute but i guess that was suppose to make everything better.. no it doesnt.. if everytime he does this and then draws me a picture im gonna end up goin through alot of pain and u know what im sorry but i dont think ive done anything to deserve this... god... man... maybe i should just go on and move its not like i have anything here for.... i was gonna stay for alex but not if hes gonna be like this... i only have a couple days off and its like when we do hang out he always expects me to pay for everything cuz i have a job but its not suppose to go like that... hes the boy ...im not gonna just sit around and wait for him to call... that would be desperate/pathetic.... o well i guess im gonna go get ready for work since i have nothin to do and noone to talk to... oh hey my day off is tomorrow so someone call me and we can do somethin cuz i really dont want to spend the day with alex if hes gonna be like this so come and entertain me please!!
<3 always, JamiE