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All I want to say is thank you to everyone. Do not take this in the wrong way. This is in no way a suicide note or anything like that. All this is is a message to the world.
I AM DONE WITH YOU! Wholey and fully. I have nothing else to give. I have given my heart, soul and body to other people for the last 3 years + of my life. I am done. I am done with everyone and everything. If everyone would just leave me alone and not mess with my emotions for the next 2 years, I will be..... Well I will be content. I'm tired of everything and everyone. No false hopes, no false possibilities. All that does is bring someone like myself even more down than we are ready are.
This isn't just a diatrirbe of a depressed 23 year old, (as I am sure many of you think i.e. all 2 or 3 of you who actually read this). All this is is an admission of defeat. I have given up. I have given up with the world, people, and everything else that makes my life more of a pain in the ass than it already is.
Everyday I hear about how much everyone cares about me. I do not disagree that they do not care NOW. I guess it is a situation where when you are down and out that people for some reason come out of the wood work and tell you how much they mean to them. How much can you mean to someone when that person has so many other things going on that it is obvious that whatever happens to you is in consequential to the minimun.
So with that being said in 2 years, if you do not hear from me, just assume that I am doing something that I enjoy and am finally happy,
I AM DONE WITH YOU! Wholey and fully. I have nothing else to give. I have given my heart, soul and body to other people for the last 3 years + of my life. I am done. I am done with everyone and everything. If everyone would just leave me alone and not mess with my emotions for the next 2 years, I will be..... Well I will be content. I'm tired of everything and everyone. No false hopes, no false possibilities. All that does is bring someone like myself even more down than we are ready are.
This isn't just a diatrirbe of a depressed 23 year old, (as I am sure many of you think i.e. all 2 or 3 of you who actually read this). All this is is an admission of defeat. I have given up. I have given up with the world, people, and everything else that makes my life more of a pain in the ass than it already is.
Everyday I hear about how much everyone cares about me. I do not disagree that they do not care NOW. I guess it is a situation where when you are down and out that people for some reason come out of the wood work and tell you how much they mean to them. How much can you mean to someone when that person has so many other things going on that it is obvious that whatever happens to you is in consequential to the minimun.
So with that being said in 2 years, if you do not hear from me, just assume that I am doing something that I enjoy and am finally happy,