murder was the case that they gave me
i was talking to tarah this afternoon about the fact that ive become the king of all bridge burners. its something i realized myself, but kinda needed her validation to confirm it. ive had some people do some stuff to me that sucked and ive let that effect me far too much. its like even the acts are nothing to me, like mike, seriously, i have nothing against him, andrzej, i have absolutly nothing against him, more to the point i actually miss both of them, but my experiences with both of them..among other things has totally scared me away from people. every time someone does something to me or around me or that affects me negatively..i distance myself immediately, and this is a new phenomenon for me. its retarded. i wonder why im bored and have noone to hang out with ha. ah whatever. im over that shit, its not worth it. anyways. enough of that bulllshit.
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music is fucking awesome. hearing a great song you havent heard in a while is amazing. its like being in a really fucking awesome relationship without the petty bullshit that always ruins them haha. that song will always be there for you, its always there when you need that. i love that. a lot of people dont take music as seriously as they should, thats just my opinion but life would be empty without it. i truly believe that people that just kinda listen to whatever and dont let music really affect them are missing out on something. that is all
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dude, i miss the old days. the more i think about it the better it was. i guess the grass is always greener. i miss five star day in massachusettes for the weekend. i miss parties at 48 thorne avenue. i miss hofstra (what the fuck) i miss fucking jack using the word "beat" to describe everything. i miss dennis sprouse, i miss jon labonte, i miss gerge fucking malone, i miss jeff beaudry, i miss mike kinney, and brian lucrazia and killer and jeff and dan and dana and chris hollman and fucking Rob ezelius and jay porta and TED MOTHER FUCKING Dedenato and erin, all the kids from out east, i miss everyone from back home, i miss my old life. i miss christy and nikki, and kimi and sheryl. everythings so different now. im not sure what happened but something sure did. i dont regret anything though. im a much stronger person now, california has helped me grow up alot. i needed to come here, and its awesome here, but none of those people i listed are here, and the ones that are...are hours away. and thats going to go down as the factor that killed california for me.
viva la pool house
new subject.
music is fucking awesome. hearing a great song you havent heard in a while is amazing. its like being in a really fucking awesome relationship without the petty bullshit that always ruins them haha. that song will always be there for you, its always there when you need that. i love that. a lot of people dont take music as seriously as they should, thats just my opinion but life would be empty without it. i truly believe that people that just kinda listen to whatever and dont let music really affect them are missing out on something. that is all
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dude, i miss the old days. the more i think about it the better it was. i guess the grass is always greener. i miss five star day in massachusettes for the weekend. i miss parties at 48 thorne avenue. i miss hofstra (what the fuck) i miss fucking jack using the word "beat" to describe everything. i miss dennis sprouse, i miss jon labonte, i miss gerge fucking malone, i miss jeff beaudry, i miss mike kinney, and brian lucrazia and killer and jeff and dan and dana and chris hollman and fucking Rob ezelius and jay porta and TED MOTHER FUCKING Dedenato and erin, all the kids from out east, i miss everyone from back home, i miss my old life. i miss christy and nikki, and kimi and sheryl. everythings so different now. im not sure what happened but something sure did. i dont regret anything though. im a much stronger person now, california has helped me grow up alot. i needed to come here, and its awesome here, but none of those people i listed are here, and the ones that are...are hours away. and thats going to go down as the factor that killed california for me.
viva la pool house