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Sometimes I wish I smoked cigarettes. Not for the nicotine, or the calming effect, or even 'cause it "looks cool". Smoking, at least in California where you have to go outside to do it, is one of the most social activities I've ever seen. Going all the way back to college, people would congregate outside and chit chat while they had their nicotine fix. It was the same at Sony, and now at Namco I sometimes feel like I'm missing out on something. Sure I can go out and hang there with people, breathing my fresh air with my healthy lungs. But I feel foolish doing so. Like, one time Amanda and I were coming back from our afternoon constitutional (consisting of walking down to the convenience store to buy our diet beverage of choice), and we got back to the "smoking" area. She still had a lit cigarette, so she joined the group, and I was standing there with my Sobe, feeling a bit out of the loop.
The aspect of smoking that I really want is the ability to occupy my mouth for a few seconds to break the silence. Sometimes you're with someone, talking, and having a good conversation, when all of a sudden there's a break. There's a silence which I've grown accustomed to, but never fully comfortable with. And even though I think being comfortable in the absence of conversation is a measure of how comfortable you are with the person, sometimes I'm not sure if the person I'm with is comfortable with the silence. It would also be nice to have something that would allow me to think for a moment. Like those Twix commercials. "Need a moment? *munch munch* Grab a Twix smoke."
I doubt my poor lungs could handle cigarettes. Maybe I'll take up cigars instead. Anybody here think I can pull off a cigar during a smoke break?
The aspect of smoking that I really want is the ability to occupy my mouth for a few seconds to break the silence. Sometimes you're with someone, talking, and having a good conversation, when all of a sudden there's a break. There's a silence which I've grown accustomed to, but never fully comfortable with. And even though I think being comfortable in the absence of conversation is a measure of how comfortable you are with the person, sometimes I'm not sure if the person I'm with is comfortable with the silence. It would also be nice to have something that would allow me to think for a moment. Like those Twix commercials. "Need a moment? *munch munch* Grab a Twix smoke."
I doubt my poor lungs could handle cigarettes. Maybe I'll take up cigars instead. Anybody here think I can pull off a cigar during a smoke break?