Worst Summer Ever!
Well there was summer of 04, but i had some support of my family, none of that has been shown this time, i got a snobby bitchy sister who all she thinks is me,me,me and never really thinks about others, fucking bitch , ive had enough of her, i dont have a mother fucking bed but yet she still sits on the couch that i need to sleep on and i tell her that i need to go to bed and she gets mad! i hope some punches her, she fucking deserves it! I have a dad who has the right to yell and me but i have no right to do the same, he thinks i havent registered for school becuase i told him i needed a check for school, my sister decides to jump in the conversation (like always) and be the one whos always right (like always) the thing is i couldnt use his card in the spring to buy books because the lady didnt buy the fact that im Francisco Alvarez son! I was going to tell him but my sister and my dad interupted me, so i snap and tell him, here have the card and dont believe me, so him and my sister tell me to calm down, he told me he knows im upset because of work and of the recent brake up with me and teresa but dont take it out on him! Who the fuck is he to tell me that! I got pissed because he interupted me! Im fucking sick and tired of everyone in my family, the only one in my family that understands who i am is my mother, she respect my views and my morals, she understands how hard of a life i go though, i live a life of temptation but i never ever give up and join the crowd, i told my mom my goal in life is to be the one who give that helping hand, to help other when i know they need it, to change people, to affect the lives of people, its a calling that i felt i got almost 2 years ago, but yet no one but my mom seems to see that in my family, i become single and all of the sudden my brothers want me to go clubbing and get laid, i dont get how that would make me happy, that as bad as a sin as murder! Im very anti-tattoo, putting ink on you forever is stupid, by the time your 65, your going to regret it, is it tempting, yes, will i do it, no, why, i know when im old ill think "what the fuck was i thinking", I told my mom i want people think great things about me when i die, and who knows when i die, i might as well be prepared! My mom started crying and told me she was proud that i was myself and not a follower! Dont get me wrong, i respect my dad, he the one who will lead to a successful life, and my mom is my hero, she help me become who i am, i dont what i do without her! But sometimes my family irrates me, they put me down more than normal, this is why i come home late, i know drama always comes around me! Like i told my friends, i know im young but i want a relationship, i rely on affection, i need that shuolder to lean on in situations like these, these situations have happen alot recently! i cant wait, i cant depend on waiting, i need someone! if you it desparate, than yes im desparate! I cant take this any longer, i seriously cant!