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So, for the past 3 months I've been dealing with being depressed, unemployed, alone, and worst of all addicted to heroin. I started using again after being completely sober (quit drinking too....which I don't think anybody least of all me expected). After the first shot one great night (a girl actually kissed me the same night - after a year that's pretty exciting, despite that she never wanted anything more after that) I easily started convincing myself that I'd be fine if I just did one bag a day, eh two bags, eh ten bags....you get the idea.
After about 10 attempts to quit (only making it 3 days at most) the withdrawals so terrible I somehow managed to taper down and now I'm making my way into DAY MOTHERFUCKING FIVE and I really feel ok...not great I still have the runs, depression, and sleeplessness, but still I can curve my cravings and I'm not in agonizing pain. But even so, im really scared of relapse. If i do im sure it will be the end of me. Two overdoses almost killed me last month. Started mixing it with coke/crack and shooting it all up and wham next thing i know everything fades out and i feel fantastic but then im being awoken by my roommate, my body really cold etc
:(
please dont let me relapse please dont let me turn this addiction into another
i just want to be happy without being fucked up for once....:(
wish me luck
william
After about 10 attempts to quit (only making it 3 days at most) the withdrawals so terrible I somehow managed to taper down and now I'm making my way into DAY MOTHERFUCKING FIVE and I really feel ok...not great I still have the runs, depression, and sleeplessness, but still I can curve my cravings and I'm not in agonizing pain. But even so, im really scared of relapse. If i do im sure it will be the end of me. Two overdoses almost killed me last month. Started mixing it with coke/crack and shooting it all up and wham next thing i know everything fades out and i feel fantastic but then im being awoken by my roommate, my body really cold etc
:(
please dont let me relapse please dont let me turn this addiction into another
i just want to be happy without being fucked up for once....:(
wish me luck
william