I guess it struck a nerve

[themandus]

It's when I am drunk at this hour I look not skyward, but down.
Anton you would spit upon me. Goddamn disgusted. Pile.
I miss my father, I miss my mate either would have kept me straight!

there's an old man on a city bus
holding a candy cane
and it is'nt even christmas
he see's a note in the obituary
that his last friend has died
there's an infant clinging
to his overweight mother in the cold
as the spends her last dollar
on a bottle of vodka for tonight
and i guess it struck a nerve
like i had to squint my eyes
you can never get out
of the line of sight
like a barren winter day
or a patch of unburned green
like a tragic real dream
i guess it struck a nerve
every day i wander
in negative disposition
as i'm bombarded by superlatives
realizing very well that i am not alone
introverted
i look to tomorrow for salvation
but i'm thinking altruistcally
and a wave of overwhelming doubt
turns me to stone
and i guess it struck a nerve
sent a murmur to my heart
we just haven't got time
to crack the maze
like a magic speeding clock
or a cancer in our cells
a collision in the dark
i guess it struck a nerve
i try to close my eyes
but i cannot ignore the stimuli
if there is a purpose for us all
it remains a secret to me
don't ask me to justify my life