interesting question...
mom asked me what exactly i saw in a particular girl... in fact it was two girls... i couldnt answer her right away and i actually had to think about it... but eventually i did answer...
the 1st... though ditsy and it's unimaginable that we fit... we balanced. the main goal for both of us was to have fun and make memories... we did... after that i looked elsewhere.
the 2nd... it's a mix of things... some bad some good... all of which i loved... the biggest thing was that in my head i was invincible... she helped show me that i wasn't... she was there to say "stop it" and let me know that im not an adult yet... i thought i was teaching her and yet i was the one who was taught... though it may have been a mutual learning i still believe that i gained more... and though it seemed to be an almost distant relationship... when around i felt loved... not the high school romance with hearts on notebooks love... compassionate, binding love...
on an lj entry from a long time ago i wrote that my perfect girl is someone i can teach... i was wrong... im the one in need of a teacher. lets face it... i need all the help i can get.
i hate that i go speechless on the phone... i hate that i get mad so easily over stupid jokes that normally i would play along with... in reality... im starving to prove those jokes completely wrong and leave someone else speechless... im actually not in the gutter on that one lol... but yeah... i still think it's impossible...
work is not as bad as tuesday... i have a list of reservations and i've had two walkins already... i brought my guitar to work since i was at my grandparents house for a few hours... maybe i'll get to kick back and strum along with my ipod later...
i think this entry deserves lyrics...
"All alone at the end of the evening
And the bright lights have faded to blue
I was thinking 'bout a woman who might have
Loved me and I never knew
You know I've always been a dreamer
(spent my life running 'round)
And it's so hard to change
(Can't seem to settle down)
But the dreams I've seen lately
Keep on turning out and burning out
And turning out the same
So put me on a highway
And show me a sign
And take it to the limit one more time
You can spend all your time making money
You can spend all your love making time
If it all fell to pieces tomorrow
Would you still be mine?
And when you're looking for your freedom
(Nobody seems to care)
And you can't find the door
(Can't find it anywhere)
When there's nothing to believe in
Still you're coming back, you're running back
You're coming back for more
So put me on a highway
And show me a sign
And take it to the limit one more time
Take it to the limit
Take it to the limit
Take it to the limit one more time"
-The Eagels
"Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide
All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside
I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through"
-Lifehouse
if anyone gets bored... 986-1000 is a relief number... guaranteed.
the 1st... though ditsy and it's unimaginable that we fit... we balanced. the main goal for both of us was to have fun and make memories... we did... after that i looked elsewhere.
the 2nd... it's a mix of things... some bad some good... all of which i loved... the biggest thing was that in my head i was invincible... she helped show me that i wasn't... she was there to say "stop it" and let me know that im not an adult yet... i thought i was teaching her and yet i was the one who was taught... though it may have been a mutual learning i still believe that i gained more... and though it seemed to be an almost distant relationship... when around i felt loved... not the high school romance with hearts on notebooks love... compassionate, binding love...
on an lj entry from a long time ago i wrote that my perfect girl is someone i can teach... i was wrong... im the one in need of a teacher. lets face it... i need all the help i can get.
i hate that i go speechless on the phone... i hate that i get mad so easily over stupid jokes that normally i would play along with... in reality... im starving to prove those jokes completely wrong and leave someone else speechless... im actually not in the gutter on that one lol... but yeah... i still think it's impossible...
work is not as bad as tuesday... i have a list of reservations and i've had two walkins already... i brought my guitar to work since i was at my grandparents house for a few hours... maybe i'll get to kick back and strum along with my ipod later...
i think this entry deserves lyrics...
"All alone at the end of the evening
And the bright lights have faded to blue
I was thinking 'bout a woman who might have
Loved me and I never knew
You know I've always been a dreamer
(spent my life running 'round)
And it's so hard to change
(Can't seem to settle down)
But the dreams I've seen lately
Keep on turning out and burning out
And turning out the same
So put me on a highway
And show me a sign
And take it to the limit one more time
You can spend all your time making money
You can spend all your love making time
If it all fell to pieces tomorrow
Would you still be mine?
And when you're looking for your freedom
(Nobody seems to care)
And you can't find the door
(Can't find it anywhere)
When there's nothing to believe in
Still you're coming back, you're running back
You're coming back for more
So put me on a highway
And show me a sign
And take it to the limit one more time
Take it to the limit
Take it to the limit
Take it to the limit one more time"
-The Eagels
"Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide
All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside
I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through"
-Lifehouse
if anyone gets bored... 986-1000 is a relief number... guaranteed.