you must not know bout me
warning: this might be a little depressing. please do not read if you're in a good mood.
i miss him. he's been gone for almost twelve days and i've talked to him once on the phone and other than that we've exchanged short messages on facebook...about every other day.
i just wish he would come home already. maybe i need to realize that this isn't his home. it might be mine, but it's not anyone else's here. it's a temporary place. right now he's at home.
when i was there, i felt like i was at home, too, so i know he has to be having fun there. i just wish i were there, too.
devon's leaving on friday or saturday i think....which is very sad. i'll miss her while she's gone but i'm really happy she's going home. and quitting her job. lol... it's a needed change.
i'll be spending the holidays with toni and chris. i have both xmas eve and xma off work, so i'll be able to celebrate i guess. we're gonna have dinner and stuff. i just really really hope that i don't get all emotional. i've been determined to forget about said xmas because it was always pretty much my favorite holiday and i usually dress up in costumes and stuff...starting weeks before it's actually here. with the happenings of this year, i can't help but feel a bit left out. i do miss the holidays with my sisters and i'm definately going to miss the cheer and the music and all of the other things that make christmas so wonderful.
but without my sisters, it's not the same at all. would i rather just forget about all of it?
yeah.
i miss him. he's been gone for almost twelve days and i've talked to him once on the phone and other than that we've exchanged short messages on facebook...about every other day.
i just wish he would come home already. maybe i need to realize that this isn't his home. it might be mine, but it's not anyone else's here. it's a temporary place. right now he's at home.
when i was there, i felt like i was at home, too, so i know he has to be having fun there. i just wish i were there, too.
devon's leaving on friday or saturday i think....which is very sad. i'll miss her while she's gone but i'm really happy she's going home. and quitting her job. lol... it's a needed change.
i'll be spending the holidays with toni and chris. i have both xmas eve and xma off work, so i'll be able to celebrate i guess. we're gonna have dinner and stuff. i just really really hope that i don't get all emotional. i've been determined to forget about said xmas because it was always pretty much my favorite holiday and i usually dress up in costumes and stuff...starting weeks before it's actually here. with the happenings of this year, i can't help but feel a bit left out. i do miss the holidays with my sisters and i'm definately going to miss the cheer and the music and all of the other things that make christmas so wonderful.
but without my sisters, it's not the same at all. would i rather just forget about all of it?
yeah.