Stop The World, I Want To Get Off
So, I decided to take the high road and respond to the ex-fiance. I simply said that yes I did date a guy named Greg, was actually engaged to him. And that the picture looked exactly like him so I take it that he is one and the same. That was all I said. I got a response...
"Yes, it was... don't mean to hash any bad things - just came across your profile and thought it looked like you. I am not sure if you would ever like to talk to me after all the crap I put you through. I just wanted to know how you were doing and if you were alright. I thought you should know that after all these years I still think of you and feel like you are my biggest regret. I regret not being able to have been a man back then and treat you like the woman you are. I have always felt bad about that and I am truly, truly sorry."
So this is it right? This is what every woman who is scorned wants to hear, right? I should be doing the "that's-right-loser-you-lost-out-and-now-you-can't-have-me" dance, right? So why aren't I? Why did my first reaction be cry from the bottom of my soul? Why after that have I not begun that dance? What the frell is wrong with me? Why haven't I just deleted the damn thing? What should I do?
All of this on top of the fact that my yearly performance review is Monday and I'm nervous enough about that than have to deal with an ex from 10 years ago.
"Yes, it was... don't mean to hash any bad things - just came across your profile and thought it looked like you. I am not sure if you would ever like to talk to me after all the crap I put you through. I just wanted to know how you were doing and if you were alright. I thought you should know that after all these years I still think of you and feel like you are my biggest regret. I regret not being able to have been a man back then and treat you like the woman you are. I have always felt bad about that and I am truly, truly sorry."
So this is it right? This is what every woman who is scorned wants to hear, right? I should be doing the "that's-right-loser-you-lost-out-and-now-you-can't-have-me" dance, right? So why aren't I? Why did my first reaction be cry from the bottom of my soul? Why after that have I not begun that dance? What the frell is wrong with me? Why haven't I just deleted the damn thing? What should I do?
All of this on top of the fact that my yearly performance review is Monday and I'm nervous enough about that than have to deal with an ex from 10 years ago.