I hate this and wish It would just leave me alone.
So, I'm putting on makeup, when I noticed that this little swell I'd been ignoring on my upper eyelid had been there for awhile. I had figured it was just swollen because I'd been putting a heatpack on my eye every night or because I was having a reaction to something. I put my finger on it to find out.
It's a fucking lump. Probably ANOTHER stye. Possibly something worse. And, of course, my immediate conclusion is that it's cancer and I'm gonna die. Which is a stupid and frightening conclusion to jump to.
On the bright side, I just spent about 15 minutes crying and, as a result, my eyes are a lovely shade of green.
I don't understand why my eye can't just be...normal. I'm scared. I just want a doctor to knock me unconscious and take a scalpel to my eye.
I'm really scared.
It's a fucking lump. Probably ANOTHER stye. Possibly something worse. And, of course, my immediate conclusion is that it's cancer and I'm gonna die. Which is a stupid and frightening conclusion to jump to.
On the bright side, I just spent about 15 minutes crying and, as a result, my eyes are a lovely shade of green.
I don't understand why my eye can't just be...normal. I'm scared. I just want a doctor to knock me unconscious and take a scalpel to my eye.
I'm really scared.