there's nothing to me anymore..
im not the type of person to get depressed but today i just feel like crying.. and i dont have a reason to i just feel like it. so the for the past hour i have just been crying. ill cry then ill stop.. it's weird. i have never felt this way before and there is a low sinking feeling im my belly. i just feel like i can't do anything right. like my life is worthless.. and im not going anywhere in life. i dont think a lot of people see me for me they only see this girl who laughs a lot, and is really weird. but out side all of that that's not what i feel like. i feel like there is something missing out of my life, but i dont know what it is...i feel really emo today...and Sarah told me to just cry it will make everything feel better well it's not, when ever i cry it reminds me of sad times that i want to forget. ugh.. i dont know... maybe it's all in my head. and i dont like talking to people about it becasue, i feel like they will look at my weird and go "your not depressed your just doing it to get people to notcie you and shit" well thats not it at all... i never feel this way.. it's just a new feeling that im not use to.