Just shoot me! Please?
I am so glad I actually have a sensible day off work tommorow, I really need it. It has been an awful fucking two weeks, and quite honestly I dont know how much more crap I can deal with. But really what can I do? I need to save money for school. I cant afford to not be working, so I have to just sit back and take it, which isnt doing well for mood to say the least. Im getting into one of those depressive moods, I can feel it, and I cant have that. It isnt good for me or for anyone for that matter. Not to mention my anxiety has been bad lately. Just add that to the old shit list. XP
And I dont really like bothering people by telling them my problems I like to bottle it all up and deal with it myself. Because I hate complaining, makes me feel all childish and emo. *Shudders* emo...
Besides work related drama I have David related drama to deal with, he has been upset because his student loan got screwed up yet again, and he had to go through a mess of paperwork and such to straighten it out, and I hate seeing David stressed, cause then I feel like I should be doing something to help, and in situations like this there is nothing I can do, and I hate doing nothing. All I can do is be reassuring. At least he got that all straightened out today, that's one less thing to worry about.
Also having all of your closest friends gone away to school or for work is depressing. Really kids, it's awful. Everyone has moved away, and I cant move until January, so it's really lonely in town. Just me and Dave, and a couple of friends, but our usual Saturday night outings havent been happening cause nobody is around. And I miss it. I cant wait for Jason and Tulip, not to mention Sammers to come back for Thanksgiving. I miss everyone so much. I could use a bit of fun right now. Really.
So in short I feel alone, angry, and depressed. Wonderful.
And I dont really like bothering people by telling them my problems I like to bottle it all up and deal with it myself. Because I hate complaining, makes me feel all childish and emo. *Shudders* emo...
Besides work related drama I have David related drama to deal with, he has been upset because his student loan got screwed up yet again, and he had to go through a mess of paperwork and such to straighten it out, and I hate seeing David stressed, cause then I feel like I should be doing something to help, and in situations like this there is nothing I can do, and I hate doing nothing. All I can do is be reassuring. At least he got that all straightened out today, that's one less thing to worry about.
Also having all of your closest friends gone away to school or for work is depressing. Really kids, it's awful. Everyone has moved away, and I cant move until January, so it's really lonely in town. Just me and Dave, and a couple of friends, but our usual Saturday night outings havent been happening cause nobody is around. And I miss it. I cant wait for Jason and Tulip, not to mention Sammers to come back for Thanksgiving. I miss everyone so much. I could use a bit of fun right now. Really.
So in short I feel alone, angry, and depressed. Wonderful.