You know everything, and everything's a lie
Thank you Kalli for the quote. That picture took me 8 shots to get right, and still it is blurry.
Remind me never to listen to sad songs while I'm eating.
A lot of people are leaving livejournal because it is very dramatic and trendy. It's dramatic and trendy if you make it that way, and I guess I do but I like it that way. No one has ever actually listened when I talk, but for some reason they will read my journal daily. I think the smartest people can get their entire point across in a single paragraph, while I am stuck writing chapter long stories, of me rambling on about my day and other things no one even cares about. I wish I had something deep to tell everyone, but to be honest I don't think anyone would read. The only time I get comments is on picture posts, so I will give the people what they want. Okay so here in the middle of my giant paragraph. I am asking if you really read this entire thing, to comment with the words "Vanilla Sky" because those are the lyrics in the song I am listening to this very second which happens to be "Just a Little Crush" by Jennifer Page. Even if it's anonymous, or I hate you. Just make my day, please.
It's really the little things that amuse me. Like Bette Midler, and Jewish humor.
So I took an IQ test yesterday and my IQ is 132, but I don't know if this is accurate because it was an online test. The results said I was very good in math and figuring out patterns. Kind of reminded me of A Beautiful Mind minus the schitzo.
Earlier I had made a post about how average my family was. And I've come to the conclusion that I have average in my blood and I'm okay with that. I think everyone likes to make their family out to be something they're not. Like I used to have a friend that always made her family sound so deep and mysterious and really fucked up. Her family isn't any of those. Every family has problems, we're all fucked up I figure. So what if my dad goes into lesbian chats. He's still a nice dad. We've all got issues. And I think being average isn't so bad. I mean, I don't know anyone who isn't average. And I'm fascinated by all the people I do know, which means you can be average and still be a-okay.
I also learned how conservative I can be sometimes. I didn't think I was. But I realized, I'm going to be such a safe driver. I plan to stop partying by the age of 25. The phrase soccer mom really doesn't scare me. You know how everyone always talks about "the rush?" The rush you get from shoplifting or sneaking out, or drinking and driving. Yeah, I never enjoyed that rush. Not to say I don't have fun being a badass. Books on parenting always say how teens think they're invincible. And I think we do. And I hope that feeling doesn't wear off until atleast my mid-life crisis.
