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My job interview went well, but I don't think I got the job because he wants someone who would be able to continue working through the school year. And if I have school then I wouldn't be able to work except on weekends because the shop closes at 3:00. Oh well. But I just may be able to work next year throughout the school year if I decide to go through with the AACC thing. Thanks to everyones comments, I'm thinking that staying in high school may be the answer. I'm probably going to get a lot of credits over with at AACC during my junior year, and I'll come back to Severna Park my senior year. Does that sound good? Everyone loves their senior year, so I figure I'll just take a year off, or so.
I have a new crush. Well he's not new. I just realized it and became more open about it recently. And as much as I want to pursue it, I don't know if it would work. I love thinking about it, and getting all nervous like I used to so many months ago. It took my mind off a lot of things, like my huge English paper and some other problems. But still, with my luck, nothing will work, so I'm staying pessimistic to keep from getting hurt again.
A lot's been happening. Things have been fitting in a lot more clearly. I'm starting to see who I like and who I don't and it's becoming ever so black and white now even though that seems to be what I've been trying to escape for so long. I love people who can be themselves around me, around everyone. I love people who don't have to act different to feel like someone will like them more. I love people who listen to me. I love people who care about me and show it. I hate people that think drinking and getting high will make them fit in more, as if getting fucked up is something new. I hate people who listen to music that all sounds the same because they're afraid that something different might hurt their ears. I'm sick of people who get too camera happy then call themselves ugly. I'm sick of people who get too camera happy. I'm sick of people who all look the same. I hate trends. I know they're inevitable, but it's so disguisting, walking down the mall seeing a group of girls who are dressed identically.I'm tired of stupid rating communities on livejournal that just completely destroy someones self esteem. I'm sick of people who can't admit when something is great just because it's generic. I'm sick of people who are generic. I'm sick of music that is generic. I'm sick of how everyone at my school trys to be a stoner hippy, then plays it off that they weren't aware that everyone else in the school is just like them. I'm tired of this stupid label called scene. I especially hate people who make fun of it, then fall right back into the trend. You know what the scene trends are, they're all so random and stupid. Dinosaurs, guns, and digital cameras. You can't tell me you weren't aware how dumb you sound when you do these things. I'm sick of people who sleep around. I'm just sick.
So sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick.