I am ready
I am fine.
Life serves you once in a while, and if you haven't heard of karma, get to know it. Life always pans out the way it is supposed to. I believe in fate taking the reigns now. My life might be a little upside-down, but it's supposed to be this way. I'm earning back trust with those I truly care about and leaving others where they belong, in the past. I'm growing continually and learning constantly. Life has this weird way of just working out in the end, making it to the end is key.
Speaking of, I'm pretty excited to try to quit smoking and working out again. I think with this whole starting new I should become new in body, spirit, mind, the whole works. I've been doing a good job at getting over the two pregnancies of the ex. I've been great about getting over him in general, because everyone knows, even if the dude fucked up... it doesn't mean you immediately stop loving that person! But my love is fading, it will always be there, but it's becoming obvious that shit was all fake, so why sit here and wish for someone who isn't even real? Doesn't make sense.
Logic is a beautiful thing. My brain has replaced my heart in this equation and my love is no longer blind. Trever was never real, he was a figment of my imagination, something made up in my head. His lies make him just a fallacy and sometimes I want to say mistake, but I can't go there. He taught me a lot about life. How to say goodbye, how to love, how to hate at times, how to let go, how to not give up, how to just plain let someone in - no matter what the outcome is. He has taught me to not be so naive and simple. To stand up for myself, to find myself. I'm happy for that, but I'm sad it had to be three years of pain and seclusion for me to find myself. I have though, and I've replaced insecurities with the ability to thrive for better. For change.
Now that Obama is my president, I'm ready to feel secure and happy in my country and myself. I can really thrive now. I'm excited for all the ups and downs that come with self realization.
And I absolutely adore my friends.
Completely.
Life serves you once in a while, and if you haven't heard of karma, get to know it. Life always pans out the way it is supposed to. I believe in fate taking the reigns now. My life might be a little upside-down, but it's supposed to be this way. I'm earning back trust with those I truly care about and leaving others where they belong, in the past. I'm growing continually and learning constantly. Life has this weird way of just working out in the end, making it to the end is key.
Speaking of, I'm pretty excited to try to quit smoking and working out again. I think with this whole starting new I should become new in body, spirit, mind, the whole works. I've been doing a good job at getting over the two pregnancies of the ex. I've been great about getting over him in general, because everyone knows, even if the dude fucked up... it doesn't mean you immediately stop loving that person! But my love is fading, it will always be there, but it's becoming obvious that shit was all fake, so why sit here and wish for someone who isn't even real? Doesn't make sense.
Logic is a beautiful thing. My brain has replaced my heart in this equation and my love is no longer blind. Trever was never real, he was a figment of my imagination, something made up in my head. His lies make him just a fallacy and sometimes I want to say mistake, but I can't go there. He taught me a lot about life. How to say goodbye, how to love, how to hate at times, how to let go, how to not give up, how to just plain let someone in - no matter what the outcome is. He has taught me to not be so naive and simple. To stand up for myself, to find myself. I'm happy for that, but I'm sad it had to be three years of pain and seclusion for me to find myself. I have though, and I've replaced insecurities with the ability to thrive for better. For change.
Now that Obama is my president, I'm ready to feel secure and happy in my country and myself. I can really thrive now. I'm excited for all the ups and downs that come with self realization.
And I absolutely adore my friends.
Completely.