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Well, I'm in computers class right now. I fucking hate this class. It's so pointless.
I wish that I could just drop it and let my music class credits from LMC take the place of the ones I'm missing here.
But yeah...anyway...Life as of late...
I guess it's been alright. There's nothing to really complain about. I'm over Cyle and that's good. But "over him" and "hate him" are two different things. Yeah, I still hate him. I think I have the right though.
I was talking to Maria last night and she asked if I had anyone new in my life as far as crushes go. And I thought about it and I don't. This is the first time in a long time that I'm not really interested in someone. Maybe the thing with Cyle made me lose faith in the male side of the specieas. I have a few guys I think are cute and are really awesome, but no one I really want to invest time in.
I guess if I had to choose the main "awesome, cute guy", I would probably choose Aaron. He is the most beautiful fob I have ever seen. And he's really a kickass person. But he's Cyle's really good friend. And if I did like him, that would be really weird.
I think that I don't want to have any attachment to him, because I would feel like I was doing to Cyle what Cyle did to me. You know, saying I have an interest in him and then going out with his friend.
I'm not as fucked up as that, and I don't want to sink to that level.
Other than that, I've been feeling rather indifferent lately. I'm not really depressed, but I'm not content really. I don't know. It's like I'm constantly bothered. But I don't know by what.
I think that maybe I need something...different.
[Kristi]
I wish that I could just drop it and let my music class credits from LMC take the place of the ones I'm missing here.
But yeah...anyway...Life as of late...
I guess it's been alright. There's nothing to really complain about. I'm over Cyle and that's good. But "over him" and "hate him" are two different things. Yeah, I still hate him. I think I have the right though.
I was talking to Maria last night and she asked if I had anyone new in my life as far as crushes go. And I thought about it and I don't. This is the first time in a long time that I'm not really interested in someone. Maybe the thing with Cyle made me lose faith in the male side of the specieas. I have a few guys I think are cute and are really awesome, but no one I really want to invest time in.
I guess if I had to choose the main "awesome, cute guy", I would probably choose Aaron. He is the most beautiful fob I have ever seen. And he's really a kickass person. But he's Cyle's really good friend. And if I did like him, that would be really weird.
I think that I don't want to have any attachment to him, because I would feel like I was doing to Cyle what Cyle did to me. You know, saying I have an interest in him and then going out with his friend.
I'm not as fucked up as that, and I don't want to sink to that level.
Other than that, I've been feeling rather indifferent lately. I'm not really depressed, but I'm not content really. I don't know. It's like I'm constantly bothered. But I don't know by what.
I think that maybe I need something...different.
[Kristi]