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mlina now has a present and I am finished early for the year. Hope everybody has a merry Christmas or whatever you celebrate during this time of the year.
Title: Christmas Wishes
Fandom: X-Men Earth-626 (not as 626-y as I would've liked though)
Rating: T
Genre: Angst
Pairings: Cessily Kincaid
Warnings: None
Summary: She makes the same wish every Christmas but it never comes true.
Christmas Wishes
She thinks about him sometimes, about what her life could be like if only things were different. Normally when she does this, her thought turn to what her life was like before her powers. Cessily Kincaid had it all back then. She was pretty, she was popular, and most of all she was normal. Things aren't so perfect anymore and they never will be. That doesn't bother her so much anymore. She's learned to live with being different.
Cessily always thought she would end up with someone like Julian Keller, for better and for worse. There were plenty of his kind back at her old school and they made their reputations off of scoring with pretty cheerleaders like her. The problem is that she isn't so pretty anymore. Then again, Julian isn't like the boys at her old school. Nothing at Xavier's is like it was at her old school.
Cessily is painfully aware of what everyone says about Julian. He's arrogant, rude, vain, and a host of other things that aren't repeatable in mixed company. That's not the way she sees him though. If the Hellions are her family, which they definitely are to her, then Julian is the big brother she never had. Coming from life as an only child, Cessily isn't used to having siblings. She thinks she would want a big brother like Julian though. There's no question that he can be vain and self-centered at times but she can tell he's trying to be better about that. For all the times he's seemingly put himself first, Cessily knows that Julian cares just as much about her and the rest of their teammates as he does about himself.
It's this familial affection for him that confuses her because there's so many other feelings she has for him. There are so many things she wants to tell him but she has to bite her non-existent tongue and keep quiet about it. It's a slow kind of torture, the one filled with misunderstood words and words not even spoken at all. It's the kind of torture that can still hurt Cessily when nothing physical can anymore. She honestly thinks she would prefer physical pain to this kind of pain.
Every Christmas, Cessily makes a wish. It's the silly, childish kind of thing that she should stop doing but does it anyway. Her first Christmas at Xavier's, she wished that the forces of the universe would take away her powers so she could just be normal again. She doesn't wish that anymore because she knows that this is her new life now and nothing will change it. Instead, she wishes for one small piece of her old life back. She wishes that she could still be the pretty cheerleader who attracts the popular boys like moths to a flame. She wishes that she wasn't such a freak because maybe then she would be able to tell Julian how she really feels about him without such a huge fear of being rejected. She knows that there's more to him than what everyone else thinks because she's seen it in him firsthand. She just wishes she was brave enough to tell him that.
She's lost count of the number of Christmases that she's made this wish. She knows deep down that it's just never going to come true no matter how many times she wishes it. It doesn't matter how much more she sees in him or how much more he might see in her. She's not the pretty cheerleader she used to be even if he's still the most popular guy in school. She's always just the little sister to him, the shoulder to cry on for support or advice. Some Christmas wishes just don't come true no matter how hard you wish for them to.
Title: Christmas Wishes
Fandom: X-Men Earth-626 (not as 626-y as I would've liked though)
Rating: T
Genre: Angst
Pairings: Cessily Kincaid
Warnings: None
Summary: She makes the same wish every Christmas but it never comes true.
Christmas Wishes
She thinks about him sometimes, about what her life could be like if only things were different. Normally when she does this, her thought turn to what her life was like before her powers. Cessily Kincaid had it all back then. She was pretty, she was popular, and most of all she was normal. Things aren't so perfect anymore and they never will be. That doesn't bother her so much anymore. She's learned to live with being different.
Cessily always thought she would end up with someone like Julian Keller, for better and for worse. There were plenty of his kind back at her old school and they made their reputations off of scoring with pretty cheerleaders like her. The problem is that she isn't so pretty anymore. Then again, Julian isn't like the boys at her old school. Nothing at Xavier's is like it was at her old school.
Cessily is painfully aware of what everyone says about Julian. He's arrogant, rude, vain, and a host of other things that aren't repeatable in mixed company. That's not the way she sees him though. If the Hellions are her family, which they definitely are to her, then Julian is the big brother she never had. Coming from life as an only child, Cessily isn't used to having siblings. She thinks she would want a big brother like Julian though. There's no question that he can be vain and self-centered at times but she can tell he's trying to be better about that. For all the times he's seemingly put himself first, Cessily knows that Julian cares just as much about her and the rest of their teammates as he does about himself.
It's this familial affection for him that confuses her because there's so many other feelings she has for him. There are so many things she wants to tell him but she has to bite her non-existent tongue and keep quiet about it. It's a slow kind of torture, the one filled with misunderstood words and words not even spoken at all. It's the kind of torture that can still hurt Cessily when nothing physical can anymore. She honestly thinks she would prefer physical pain to this kind of pain.
Every Christmas, Cessily makes a wish. It's the silly, childish kind of thing that she should stop doing but does it anyway. Her first Christmas at Xavier's, she wished that the forces of the universe would take away her powers so she could just be normal again. She doesn't wish that anymore because she knows that this is her new life now and nothing will change it. Instead, she wishes for one small piece of her old life back. She wishes that she could still be the pretty cheerleader who attracts the popular boys like moths to a flame. She wishes that she wasn't such a freak because maybe then she would be able to tell Julian how she really feels about him without such a huge fear of being rejected. She knows that there's more to him than what everyone else thinks because she's seen it in him firsthand. She just wishes she was brave enough to tell him that.
She's lost count of the number of Christmases that she's made this wish. She knows deep down that it's just never going to come true no matter how many times she wishes it. It doesn't matter how much more she sees in him or how much more he might see in her. She's not the pretty cheerleader she used to be even if he's still the most popular guy in school. She's always just the little sister to him, the shoulder to cry on for support or advice. Some Christmas wishes just don't come true no matter how hard you wish for them to.