floods
long hiatus.
there was nothing left to say.
meanwhile... italia's won the world cup. bastards. it irks me though its certain theres no interest on his part anyway. soccer. football. futbol. too bourgeois. uncivilized. he would not care. think of him; curse myself. he wrote for my birthday. nada on this end. of course. i cant and i wont. the boy's been around. & i mean aaarrrooouuund. i like it and i dont. its not all that fair, is it. cannot give back what im receiving. he does not care. just wants wants wants. is he strong or weak?
as for me... im feeling weak again; like most days. so miss the feeling. so want normal. god help me.
there was nothing left to say.
meanwhile... italia's won the world cup. bastards. it irks me though its certain theres no interest on his part anyway. soccer. football. futbol. too bourgeois. uncivilized. he would not care. think of him; curse myself. he wrote for my birthday. nada on this end. of course. i cant and i wont. the boy's been around. & i mean aaarrrooouuund. i like it and i dont. its not all that fair, is it. cannot give back what im receiving. he does not care. just wants wants wants. is he strong or weak?
as for me... im feeling weak again; like most days. so miss the feeling. so want normal. god help me.