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Ive changed alot, for better or worse. So much of what I was has either been lost or forgotten, but what remains remembered but not practiced pushes me forward. Some missed, some better forgotten, either way my future is unwritten.
so, its been a good while, alot has changed.
Its again that time of the year where wonder-lust and the urge to throw caution to the wind and just go stark fucking mad take hold!..... It also means massive bouts of depression, and random hysteria. Alot of it im sure is due to the idea of moving to SF this summer. I am almost tempted to tell everyone im not going, and become a couch bum, that way I get to stay with everyone I love in SoCal.
Im really trying right now to be a good friend to the few I have, I really think ive been not paying enough attention to that and just general forgetfulness and selfishness.
I visited my family with Elise, and she says she now understands why I am so emotionally cut off from people (I seriously sit up late at nite thinking about how i can be more open with friends, reciting hundreds of conversations that I intend to have, thinking about friends problems and how I can help, jsut wanting to be close... but yeah.. I suck at all that).
Also a bit of real excitement! with this wonder-lust, ive also had a serge of revolutionary turbo juice.... thats right im back!...Anjali and i are starting up the OC-IMC project again! this time its happening! Also im starting a IWW push, a couple old friends from san Clemente are intterrested, and a few people from Fullerton, and our new members in LA (also SCAF folks) are hard at work organizing some messengers.
Good stuff is happening!
Post Script... I have a baggie of Flexeral... Thanks J!.... it brings back major memories. Nostalgia Nostalgia.
so, its been a good while, alot has changed.
Its again that time of the year where wonder-lust and the urge to throw caution to the wind and just go stark fucking mad take hold!..... It also means massive bouts of depression, and random hysteria. Alot of it im sure is due to the idea of moving to SF this summer. I am almost tempted to tell everyone im not going, and become a couch bum, that way I get to stay with everyone I love in SoCal.
Im really trying right now to be a good friend to the few I have, I really think ive been not paying enough attention to that and just general forgetfulness and selfishness.
I visited my family with Elise, and she says she now understands why I am so emotionally cut off from people (I seriously sit up late at nite thinking about how i can be more open with friends, reciting hundreds of conversations that I intend to have, thinking about friends problems and how I can help, jsut wanting to be close... but yeah.. I suck at all that).
Also a bit of real excitement! with this wonder-lust, ive also had a serge of revolutionary turbo juice.... thats right im back!...Anjali and i are starting up the OC-IMC project again! this time its happening! Also im starting a IWW push, a couple old friends from san Clemente are intterrested, and a few people from Fullerton, and our new members in LA (also SCAF folks) are hard at work organizing some messengers.
Good stuff is happening!
Post Script... I have a baggie of Flexeral... Thanks J!.... it brings back major memories. Nostalgia Nostalgia.