When it all comes down to it,
I look at her with a gut wrenching feeling, and i'm soo tired of it.
I have absolutely no reason to feel this way. Don't ask what about, because i'll probably have to hard of a time explaining it to you. But I can't help it. I laught at the irony of it all. At how it turned out. And how our conversations have completely flip-flopped. But there is a sigh of relief, i got what i wanted in the first place. A really nice friendship.
I'm going to miss laura very much. I went to the mall with her last week, and we had a nice talk. We've both grown up so much. She's so responsible, and mature for her age. I hope she misses me too. I'm going to write her a letter.
And me? Well, what's to say. I have yet to figure out my feelings, and i'm thinking i never will. 'cause by the time i think i've got them pegged, i'm feeling different. So enough of that. I'm being strong for my mother, and brave for myself. I'm so very afraid, but i laugh at fear these days.
I'm tired of being afraid, seriously, bring it on.
This thing with drew has made me realize something. You can't put all of your faith into people, not even your friends, or your boyfriends/girlfriends. You need to have faith in yourself, and learn to put the right amount of faith into people. Because when you go into any relationship expecting too much, you're going to be disappointed. And you're going to disappoint.
And i think i've had about enough of that.
I have absolutely no reason to feel this way. Don't ask what about, because i'll probably have to hard of a time explaining it to you. But I can't help it. I laught at the irony of it all. At how it turned out. And how our conversations have completely flip-flopped. But there is a sigh of relief, i got what i wanted in the first place. A really nice friendship.
I'm going to miss laura very much. I went to the mall with her last week, and we had a nice talk. We've both grown up so much. She's so responsible, and mature for her age. I hope she misses me too. I'm going to write her a letter.
And me? Well, what's to say. I have yet to figure out my feelings, and i'm thinking i never will. 'cause by the time i think i've got them pegged, i'm feeling different. So enough of that. I'm being strong for my mother, and brave for myself. I'm so very afraid, but i laugh at fear these days.
I'm tired of being afraid, seriously, bring it on.
This thing with drew has made me realize something. You can't put all of your faith into people, not even your friends, or your boyfriends/girlfriends. You need to have faith in yourself, and learn to put the right amount of faith into people. Because when you go into any relationship expecting too much, you're going to be disappointed. And you're going to disappoint.
And i think i've had about enough of that.