"What should i wear tomorrow?"
We are one big beautiful mess. <3.
[this will be long.]
He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He takes care of me. He frustrates me. He aggrivates me. He throws tissue boxes at me. He cooks for me. He cooks with me. He picks me up and spins me around. He puts me to sleep. He dances in the rain with me. He walks miles to see me. He plans cute things out for me. I am nothing short of content with this boy. <3. :]].
She gets me. She listens. She hugs me and takes pictures with me constantly. We walk everywhere at 1 in the morning. We change 3920132 times. I can wear her cover - up. We can cook for our boyfriends. We can shop for them, also. While flirting with the "out of towners". :]. We can spend days with each other and still want more time. I love her, I adore her. <3.
Shit. Fuck. Damn.
So much has changed since last year. I love it. I love the person I've become and the people i've met and grown closer with. I have to be honest, I'm proud of myself. I think i've accomplished many goals, overcame a lot of fears, put aside a lot of insecurites, and all and all, just grown up.
Some things still get to me.
Like, i really miss my dad more then usual lately.
It's probably because I have my brother's myspaces and they never talk to me, or reply back. it sucks =/. but i can't force them to want to be apart of my life.
And my parents anniversary was today but...i wasn't excited.
it's one more year that my mom is being put through his shit.
sorry but, i wasn't excited.
I've been assecing a lot of my goals lately. I'm so lost at what i want to do. not because i don't have options, but because i have to many. But becca told me something that sort of made sense. She told me that i can do all of it, just not all at once.
Here are my options:
1)singer
2)meteorologist
3)D/A (district attorney)
4)detective
5)psycologist
And i'm confused, but i don't feel like i'm in a rush to make any decisons. I'm 16 yrs old and i just want to live. i want to have fun and remember my teenage years as a good time. they're already lousy enough, lol. and lately that's what i've been doing, especially since it's summer. once school starts up again i'll probably get more serious about it, but for now i have no intention of over thinking and over analyzing it.
I've let a lot of things go. I feel incredible, and i'm not even sure why. Sure, there's days where I feel lousy but i've really got a lot to be thankful for. I'm tired of all the grudges, and looking at people at remembering all the bad shit that went along with them.
Even though this summer isn't ANYWHERE near as eventful as last year;
there's something about it that gives me a peace of some sort.
I feel, good i guess.
Tired of the useless complaining and aggrivation, i have 10x more to laugh about and be happy about.
But oh jeez,
what. i. would. give.
you just drive me crazy.
you make my stomach go into knots.
And i hate feeling the same way I
used to around you. Ughhh.
You put those butterflies into
my stomach, sometimes i wish you'd
leave me alone.
But you are irresistable.
Think;
Waiting for your call i'm sick,
call i'm angry,
call i'm desperate for your voice
listenig, to the songs we used to sing
in the car, you remember, butterfly,
early summer, it's playing on repeat,
just like when we would meet.
'Cause i was born, to tell you I love you.
And I am torn, to do what i have to.
To make you mine, stay with me tonight.
Striped and polished,
I am new. I am fresh.
I am feeling so ambitious,
You and me, flesh to flesh
'Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me,
will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
All types, Lindsey Ketch.
I know that everything you wanted isn't anything you have.!
[this will be long.]
He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He takes care of me. He frustrates me. He aggrivates me. He throws tissue boxes at me. He cooks for me. He cooks with me. He picks me up and spins me around. He puts me to sleep. He dances in the rain with me. He walks miles to see me. He plans cute things out for me. I am nothing short of content with this boy. <3. :]].
She gets me. She listens. She hugs me and takes pictures with me constantly. We walk everywhere at 1 in the morning. We change 3920132 times. I can wear her cover - up. We can cook for our boyfriends. We can shop for them, also. While flirting with the "out of towners". :]. We can spend days with each other and still want more time. I love her, I adore her. <3.
Shit. Fuck. Damn.
So much has changed since last year. I love it. I love the person I've become and the people i've met and grown closer with. I have to be honest, I'm proud of myself. I think i've accomplished many goals, overcame a lot of fears, put aside a lot of insecurites, and all and all, just grown up.
Some things still get to me.
Like, i really miss my dad more then usual lately.
It's probably because I have my brother's myspaces and they never talk to me, or reply back. it sucks =/. but i can't force them to want to be apart of my life.
And my parents anniversary was today but...i wasn't excited.
it's one more year that my mom is being put through his shit.
sorry but, i wasn't excited.
I've been assecing a lot of my goals lately. I'm so lost at what i want to do. not because i don't have options, but because i have to many. But becca told me something that sort of made sense. She told me that i can do all of it, just not all at once.
Here are my options:
1)singer
2)meteorologist
3)D/A (district attorney)
4)detective
5)psycologist
And i'm confused, but i don't feel like i'm in a rush to make any decisons. I'm 16 yrs old and i just want to live. i want to have fun and remember my teenage years as a good time. they're already lousy enough, lol. and lately that's what i've been doing, especially since it's summer. once school starts up again i'll probably get more serious about it, but for now i have no intention of over thinking and over analyzing it.
I've let a lot of things go. I feel incredible, and i'm not even sure why. Sure, there's days where I feel lousy but i've really got a lot to be thankful for. I'm tired of all the grudges, and looking at people at remembering all the bad shit that went along with them.
Even though this summer isn't ANYWHERE near as eventful as last year;
there's something about it that gives me a peace of some sort.
I feel, good i guess.
Tired of the useless complaining and aggrivation, i have 10x more to laugh about and be happy about.
But oh jeez,
what. i. would. give.
you just drive me crazy.
you make my stomach go into knots.
And i hate feeling the same way I
used to around you. Ughhh.
You put those butterflies into
my stomach, sometimes i wish you'd
leave me alone.
But you are irresistable.
Think;
Waiting for your call i'm sick,
call i'm angry,
call i'm desperate for your voice
listenig, to the songs we used to sing
in the car, you remember, butterfly,
early summer, it's playing on repeat,
just like when we would meet.
'Cause i was born, to tell you I love you.
And I am torn, to do what i have to.
To make you mine, stay with me tonight.
Striped and polished,
I am new. I am fresh.
I am feeling so ambitious,
You and me, flesh to flesh
'Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me,
will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
All types, Lindsey Ketch.
I know that everything you wanted isn't anything you have.!