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man life's been so damn sporadic lately. and it's my fucking hormones' fault. i hate PMS. but there's something else too. that i wasn't fully aware of until discussing it with kate today.
ever since i left home for school, i have lacked the security i once had and somewhat took for granted back home. i no longer have a best friend at my side to hold my hand when i need them to. so now i've been left with a void. and ever since i've been here at VCU, i've been frantically trying to fill that void by trying to find some sort of connection with someone. any kind of connection. which explains the random short crushes and hookups i've gotten involved in over the past month. and i haven't stopped to look at the big picture and realize this is completely unhealthy. and i just need to be patient and help myself until someone comes along and offers a hand.
i've been moving way too fast. and haven't been listening to myself. and haven't thought about what's really best for me. and my hormones going haywire has not helped *at all*.
i just need a big breath of fresh air and a chance to build on my new friendships i've made so far. and just slow down. take things one step at a time. i always try to move too fast. i need to stop stressing myself out.
ever since i left home for school, i have lacked the security i once had and somewhat took for granted back home. i no longer have a best friend at my side to hold my hand when i need them to. so now i've been left with a void. and ever since i've been here at VCU, i've been frantically trying to fill that void by trying to find some sort of connection with someone. any kind of connection. which explains the random short crushes and hookups i've gotten involved in over the past month. and i haven't stopped to look at the big picture and realize this is completely unhealthy. and i just need to be patient and help myself until someone comes along and offers a hand.
i've been moving way too fast. and haven't been listening to myself. and haven't thought about what's really best for me. and my hormones going haywire has not helped *at all*.
i just need a big breath of fresh air and a chance to build on my new friendships i've made so far. and just slow down. take things one step at a time. i always try to move too fast. i need to stop stressing myself out.