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i've been having bad dreams lately. i think it might be stress. i wish there was never such a thing as stress. it makes my periods late. it makes my muscles ache. and i end up going on a loop de loop emotional rollercoaster. i was gonna talk about my bad dreams, but i don't really want to right now.
i miss going to the drum circle every sunday HARD CORE.
you know i used to care about what i wrote on here because i thought, well maybe not everyone who reads this will wanna hear it, but i've just gotten to the point where i don't care. it's my damn journal so there.
anyway it feels like something's missing. im not entirely sure of what it is yet. actually, that's bullshit i know exactly what it is. my life lacks the happiness i look for every day. am i looking in the wrong places? or should i wait for it to come to me? or am i meant to be left in this never ending hole?
this happiness has come and gone from time to time but has never been constant like it should be. i know life's not happiness and joy all the time, but damn. it's rare that im genuinely happy.
i hope tonight with erin and carl will be good. i'll need a nice pick-me-up.
i miss going to the drum circle every sunday HARD CORE.
you know i used to care about what i wrote on here because i thought, well maybe not everyone who reads this will wanna hear it, but i've just gotten to the point where i don't care. it's my damn journal so there.
anyway it feels like something's missing. im not entirely sure of what it is yet. actually, that's bullshit i know exactly what it is. my life lacks the happiness i look for every day. am i looking in the wrong places? or should i wait for it to come to me? or am i meant to be left in this never ending hole?
this happiness has come and gone from time to time but has never been constant like it should be. i know life's not happiness and joy all the time, but damn. it's rare that im genuinely happy.
i hope tonight with erin and carl will be good. i'll need a nice pick-me-up.