Someone just tell me to shut up and stop being such a baby...
I'm not entirely sure why, but I feel really depressed. I just had a three hour long work meeting, and I realized that just as in every other faze of my life, I don't particularly fit in. I so well with people one on one, and I love to be with people I really know in groups, and people I don't know (who also don't know one another), but there's something odd, some sort of strange connectivity that these people share that I'm not a part of. I have this strange way of thinking that I am far closer with people than I actually am. For instance, I was pretty certain that my general manager was a big fan of me and i had sufficient evidence for such, but sometimes, she doesn't even know my damn name. And it really hurts.
So, here's a survey I did about 3 1/2 years ago on this same livejournal. Let's see how I've changed! Ooh! Adventure!
Name: Amanda T.J. Paul
Do you like it?: its sufficeint
Nicknames: AmandaPaul, like one word, and Boobie Bear
Screen names: amandurrr says
Age: 19
Birthday: October 2nd, 1986
Sign: East Side
Location: The basement I live in, Anderson, IN
School: Herron School of Art-Indiana University Purdue University of Indianapolis
Status: Lower-Class, Below Poverty Line
Crush: I like it, I drank it.
Virgin?: Me? No.
Natural hair color: Ruddy Brown
Current hair color: same as above
Eye color: darkest brown
Height: 5:8
Birthplace: Pontiac, MI
Shoe size: 9 1/2
Bra size: Mid-sized Double Door
[ family ]
Parents: Charles and Kimberly Scott
Siblings: Sean and Michael
Live with: My husband... In my mother-in-law's basement
Favorite relative: the theory of it
[ favorites ]
Number: Don't care, as long as its not in the red
Color: gray, brown, green
Day: Whenever
Month: They're all necessary
Song: One Armed Scissor/ATDI
Movie: St. Elmo's Fire
Food: Toasted Peanut Butter and Jelly
Band: right now: ATDI, forever: ATDI, JEW, Brandtson, Anathallo, the Anniversary
Season: Autumn
Sport: ultimate frisbee... if i were a boy i would have written "skirt chasing"
Class: Life Span Development
Teacher: Dr. Krupa
Drink: Water
Veggie: Green Peppers
TV Show: The Golden Girls, almost exclusively
Radio Station: NPR!!!
Store: H&M, Meijer (for groceries), Target (its sweet)
Word: Perpetuate
Animal: Tiny, fluffy puppies
Flower: Iris
State: I miss Michigan... but location is relative to company.
[ this or that ]
Me/You: What?
Coke/pepsi: Neither
Day/night: Day
Aol/aim: Neither
Cd/cassette: CD
Dvd/vhs: St. Elmo's Fire is on DVD
Jeans/khakis: Jeans
Car/truck: Car
Tall/short: Tall
Lunch/dinner: Lunch
NSYNC/BSB: Seriously?
Britney/Christina: I like the name Christina
Gap/Old Navy: Gap has skinny black pants!
Lipstick/Lipgloss: Chapstick
Silver/Gold: White Gold
Alcohol/Weed: Neither
[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: Lifetime, bitches.
Do you have a crush?: Again, with the lifetime, and the bitches
How long have you liked him/her?: About 3 years and 3 months
Why do you like this person?: Why the hell not?
If you're single... why are you single?: n/a
If you're not single... give details...: I have sex regularly.
How long was your longest relationship?: I'm currently involved in it
How long was your shortest relationship?: I'm currently involved in it
Who was your first love?: From the developmentalist perspectve, probably my mom
What do you miss about them?: Her presence in general, I suppose.
[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: Fuck that, it already happened.
Last thing you heard: Crickets and dehumidifier
Last thing you saw: computer screen
Last thing you said: No
Who is the last person you saw?: Starbucks people
Who is the last person you kissed?: Korey
Who is the last person you hugged?: Miss Emma Jo
Who is the last person you fought with?: Megan Richmond
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: My father
What is the last TV show you saw?: The Golden Girls
What is the last song you heard?: Something on the local radio station, probably the Eels or Roxy Music
[ the present ]
What are you wearing?: Work clothes
What are you doing?: You stupid ass.
Who are you talking to?: A survey. Damn.
What song are you listening to?: None.
Where are you?: Chair, basement.
Are you online?: I'm accessing the Internet
How are you feeling?: TZired, kinda sad
Are you in a chatroom?: Really, who does that?
[ future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: Saturday
What are you going to do after this?: Watch I heart Huckabees, hang out with Korey and some Anderson crue
Who are you going to talk to?: Anyone
Where are you going to go?: Good question
How old will you be when you graduate?: If you consider all of the schooling I am so ambitiously taking on... hopefully 26-28 yrs.
What do you wanna be?: selfless.
What is one of your dreams?: "Oh, I have far too many... I'll be making the headlines" this is what I wrote when I was 16... where did all that go?
Where will you be in 25 years?: If I knew that I'd already be there
[ have you ever ]
Drank?: If you mean alcohol, yes.
Smoked?: Yes. It's gross as hell.
Had sex?: Yes.
Stolen?: Once when I was seven
Done anything illegal?: In the most pristine sense of the word, yes.
Wanted to die?: Why not?
Hit someone?: Yes.
[ other ]
Do you write in cursive or print?: Both
Are you a lefty or a righty?: Right handed
What is your sexual preference?: Korey Paul
What piercings do you have?: Ears
Any tattoos?: Yes.
Do you drive?: Yes.
Do you have glasses or braces?: Glasses yes. Braces no.
[ physical appearance ]
What do you most like about your body?: Eyes, and Tats
And least?: Legs
How many fillings do you have?: None.
Do you think you're good looking?: I'm about average.
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: Mostly little girls and my husband
Do you look like any celebrities?: Winona Ryder
[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: Never.
How many coats and jackets do you own?: Embarassingly, around 15.
Favorite pants/skirt color?: Dark Denim.
most expensive item of clothing?: Wedding Gown.
Most treasured?: I'm very pragmatic about it, therefore, I don't feel the need to treasure.
What kind of shoes do you wear?: Flats, slip-ons and flood boots
Describe your style in one word: Messy
So, here's a survey I did about 3 1/2 years ago on this same livejournal. Let's see how I've changed! Ooh! Adventure!
Name: Amanda T.J. Paul
Do you like it?: its sufficeint
Nicknames: AmandaPaul, like one word, and Boobie Bear
Screen names: amandurrr says
Age: 19
Birthday: October 2nd, 1986
Sign: East Side
Location: The basement I live in, Anderson, IN
School: Herron School of Art-Indiana University Purdue University of Indianapolis
Status: Lower-Class, Below Poverty Line
Crush: I like it, I drank it.
Virgin?: Me? No.
Natural hair color: Ruddy Brown
Current hair color: same as above
Eye color: darkest brown
Height: 5:8
Birthplace: Pontiac, MI
Shoe size: 9 1/2
Bra size: Mid-sized Double Door
[ family ]
Parents: Charles and Kimberly Scott
Siblings: Sean and Michael
Live with: My husband... In my mother-in-law's basement
Favorite relative: the theory of it
[ favorites ]
Number: Don't care, as long as its not in the red
Color: gray, brown, green
Day: Whenever
Month: They're all necessary
Song: One Armed Scissor/ATDI
Movie: St. Elmo's Fire
Food: Toasted Peanut Butter and Jelly
Band: right now: ATDI, forever: ATDI, JEW, Brandtson, Anathallo, the Anniversary
Season: Autumn
Sport: ultimate frisbee... if i were a boy i would have written "skirt chasing"
Class: Life Span Development
Teacher: Dr. Krupa
Drink: Water
Veggie: Green Peppers
TV Show: The Golden Girls, almost exclusively
Radio Station: NPR!!!
Store: H&M, Meijer (for groceries), Target (its sweet)
Word: Perpetuate
Animal: Tiny, fluffy puppies
Flower: Iris
State: I miss Michigan... but location is relative to company.
[ this or that ]
Me/You: What?
Coke/pepsi: Neither
Day/night: Day
Aol/aim: Neither
Cd/cassette: CD
Dvd/vhs: St. Elmo's Fire is on DVD
Jeans/khakis: Jeans
Car/truck: Car
Tall/short: Tall
Lunch/dinner: Lunch
NSYNC/BSB: Seriously?
Britney/Christina: I like the name Christina
Gap/Old Navy: Gap has skinny black pants!
Lipstick/Lipgloss: Chapstick
Silver/Gold: White Gold
Alcohol/Weed: Neither
[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: Lifetime, bitches.
Do you have a crush?: Again, with the lifetime, and the bitches
How long have you liked him/her?: About 3 years and 3 months
Why do you like this person?: Why the hell not?
If you're single... why are you single?: n/a
If you're not single... give details...: I have sex regularly.
How long was your longest relationship?: I'm currently involved in it
How long was your shortest relationship?: I'm currently involved in it
Who was your first love?: From the developmentalist perspectve, probably my mom
What do you miss about them?: Her presence in general, I suppose.
[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: Fuck that, it already happened.
Last thing you heard: Crickets and dehumidifier
Last thing you saw: computer screen
Last thing you said: No
Who is the last person you saw?: Starbucks people
Who is the last person you kissed?: Korey
Who is the last person you hugged?: Miss Emma Jo
Who is the last person you fought with?: Megan Richmond
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: My father
What is the last TV show you saw?: The Golden Girls
What is the last song you heard?: Something on the local radio station, probably the Eels or Roxy Music
[ the present ]
What are you wearing?: Work clothes
What are you doing?: You stupid ass.
Who are you talking to?: A survey. Damn.
What song are you listening to?: None.
Where are you?: Chair, basement.
Are you online?: I'm accessing the Internet
How are you feeling?: TZired, kinda sad
Are you in a chatroom?: Really, who does that?
[ future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: Saturday
What are you going to do after this?: Watch I heart Huckabees, hang out with Korey and some Anderson crue
Who are you going to talk to?: Anyone
Where are you going to go?: Good question
How old will you be when you graduate?: If you consider all of the schooling I am so ambitiously taking on... hopefully 26-28 yrs.
What do you wanna be?: selfless.
What is one of your dreams?: "Oh, I have far too many... I'll be making the headlines" this is what I wrote when I was 16... where did all that go?
Where will you be in 25 years?: If I knew that I'd already be there
[ have you ever ]
Drank?: If you mean alcohol, yes.
Smoked?: Yes. It's gross as hell.
Had sex?: Yes.
Stolen?: Once when I was seven
Done anything illegal?: In the most pristine sense of the word, yes.
Wanted to die?: Why not?
Hit someone?: Yes.
[ other ]
Do you write in cursive or print?: Both
Are you a lefty or a righty?: Right handed
What is your sexual preference?: Korey Paul
What piercings do you have?: Ears
Any tattoos?: Yes.
Do you drive?: Yes.
Do you have glasses or braces?: Glasses yes. Braces no.
[ physical appearance ]
What do you most like about your body?: Eyes, and Tats
And least?: Legs
How many fillings do you have?: None.
Do you think you're good looking?: I'm about average.
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: Mostly little girls and my husband
Do you look like any celebrities?: Winona Ryder
[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: Never.
How many coats and jackets do you own?: Embarassingly, around 15.
Favorite pants/skirt color?: Dark Denim.
most expensive item of clothing?: Wedding Gown.
Most treasured?: I'm very pragmatic about it, therefore, I don't feel the need to treasure.
What kind of shoes do you wear?: Flats, slip-ons and flood boots
Describe your style in one word: Messy