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i can't deal with this shit anymore.
i just got a call from some random lady at Johnson telling me paul was back in the hospital because he tried to kill himself... and not to be worried about the suicide note i recieved. i didn't recieve a suicide note. she tells me he's in the er and will be staying at johnson. so i check my email and there it is.. entitled "hey baby" an entire page of sorrys and goodbyes with the final line being "I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU"
what the fuck is wrong with everyone? did i fuck up in our friendship that much that he thinks he can go ahead and die. i don't even know. there's so much to say... but i can't say anything at all.
so when i suck it up and visit him this week.. no matter how many fucking nurses or doctors are around.. i'm slapping him in the face.
hard.
i just got a call from some random lady at Johnson telling me paul was back in the hospital because he tried to kill himself... and not to be worried about the suicide note i recieved. i didn't recieve a suicide note. she tells me he's in the er and will be staying at johnson. so i check my email and there it is.. entitled "hey baby" an entire page of sorrys and goodbyes with the final line being "I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU I FUCKIN LOVE YOU"
what the fuck is wrong with everyone? did i fuck up in our friendship that much that he thinks he can go ahead and die. i don't even know. there's so much to say... but i can't say anything at all.
so when i suck it up and visit him this week.. no matter how many fucking nurses or doctors are around.. i'm slapping him in the face.
hard.